Worldwide Campaign to stop the Abuse and Torture of Mind Control/DEWs
Over the last several months they have been stopping me from doing all activity.
Im not allowed to read, write, walk, housework, music....nothing! Even eating. They want me to lay down on my bed in misery all day long. Its been so hard, lve become hugely depressed.
They want me smoking cigs and thats it....cigarettes have become all l do. I tried to give them up last couple of days and they are hitting me with misery....making me feel suicidal if l try to stop.
Im about to drink a bottle of wine and l had just conquered all my addictions but now they wont even let me pray. I had come so far with getting off substance abuse and now lm feeling so self-destructive coz theres almost no light in my life/day. Its awful but l thought ok l can do anything if l just have prayer. Now theyve taken this too. Theres nothing to live for and lm serioisly contemplating suicide.
I dont know what to do :( I dont understand why they are taking everything good away and its just left me with self-destructive things again when l had just beat it all. Its now all l have to live for.
Im falling apart and thinking of ways to kill myself.