I'm making these observations today after the report of the man who killed people inside of a workout gym, and the fact that he kept a blog mentioning his feelings and his intent.
There are a couple of different things going on the world and the minds of the media and the radio industry. First of all, they fear me, that I will strike out in person against them in some violent act, and so, they use examples like this blog to prove or back up their thinking, so they stay in this mode of watching me out fear. Secondly, they use false stereotyping as basis for their claims, such as, she's schizophrenic so naturally she's dangerous, and can at any moment fall into fits of madness, after losing so much in her life, naturally she will want to die, and they have been keeping track of everything I have said out loud, which hasn't been good. Thirdly, they want to keep thinking this way as a means of controlling me subconsciously, wanting me to just accept my targeting and be placid, even after years of torture and indirect comments and stranglehold from them, they always want, and think they deserve,the upper hand, and definitely, definitely never admit guilt.
Fourth, they know that people like us, targets, have every reason to be angry and so, they can not let us have our freedom, because we may still act out from all of our pain and suffering, we may seek revenge somewhere down the road, even if we are free again.
I thought I had a free space here to say what I want, but that is a joke, and the joke is on me, because I will never, ever be free living like this. I want to resume writing, and will, soon, but I may have to watch what I say.