Hi the perps are convincing me Im in hell, that life is an illusion, this is
hell and there is no such thing as a God of goodness, or that the God of
Goodness is also the God who tortures. I know this is completely illogical but
my brain is being seduced. I have discovered that EVERY person who has been in
my life has been involved in my abuse, starting first with my immediate family,
then extending to realtives and friends. No-one has ever truly loved me and they
say it has something to do with what ive done in past lifetimes. If they've all
been like this I can see why. I live with my mum and she's now forcing me to
take medication and suggestively threatening me with torture. They want me to
submit to their way or they are going to abduct and torture me in person. I have
dug thru my past, letters and photos and my whole life has been a staged event.
Maybe they are right, I am a tortured soul in hell for eternity they want me to
Im so scared now Im passing the point of hope, they have even convinced me Jesus
is a lie, good religion is a lie, the entire world is a lie.
Please someone give me some hope, some light....LOVE is true isnt it?? Its not
just a programmed concept thats been installed in my mind. I am lsoing hope,
losing my mind, losing everything I believed was reality.