I have not been writing here for a while. In the months
that were passing, I've been attacked more and more. The more I fought it, the more attacks. I even gained weight and I knew that it had to do something with the attacks. I would just feel a bitter taste in my mouth and I went up from one day to another.
One day, on FaceBook, I saw this guy saying something about Neural Monitoring that is supposed to be done directly from the satellites. I looked it up in Google and I thought that "this is it", I found the attack. I have tried all kinds of shielding and nothing had helped me.
In the last couple of weeks I had begun to receive something that felt like electro chocks in my forehead. One day I was so pissed off that I just lied down and thought: "There is no way to fight this. Maybe it's my destiny." Lying there I realized that the attacks stopped. I had given up my ego. I let go of every resistance, mental and psychological and I noticed a big transformation. I didn't fight the attacks anymore. I just surrendered to destiny and to whatever life had to bring me. Now, I noticed that in the hours that went by, no further attack was felt. I didn't know whether to pass this on or not. I wasn't sure.
Then the next day or so, I noticed that looking at my cat, I was saying: "Oh, They want more food" and there it went: another attack, the one that I recognized as making me fat. Wow, could that be true? I noticed in time, that almost all words that had to do with "food" and in all languages, and in all variations, triggered an attack.
I realized that:
1. Hate, irritation, resistance (psychological, mental) made me an easy target for the attack.
2. Some attacks were triggered when I thought of specific words.
In the next couple of days, I was very calm. I didn't even care about the gang stalking anymore. I had 5 small cats, the perps stole one. In Town, somebody stole around 80n euros from my ruck sack while I was in the supermarket. I just took a deep breath and I thought: "They only irritate me because they want to connect to me and attack my mind and my body" I took a cup of coffee and imagined a beautiful flower, the blue sky, etc. and the attack that i felt was coming, stopped.
One day I got irritated and I thought, lets see how it goes now. Can I be irritated and still attack free? Nope. They managed to tap in.
Today, I noticed that the attacks also are triggered on the mother of the small cats, when I call her beauty...
Just becoming aware of it, will neutralize the attacks. Hopefully I will in time find more words that trigger possible attacks and I will just ask my unconscious mind to release these associations.
TI-s: Meditate, let go, one hour a day, relax, let go of fear and stress, and find those words that possibly trigger attacks.