I was talking to another targeted individual today about what the perps do to us that is very subtle, but definitely there, and that is, when you are close to your children, they start to stimulate you sexually in order make you look like a child molester. This happens when I'm laying in bed (usually a hotel bed) with one of my kids, but it also happens when I am close to them or even looking at them sometimes. My immediate reaction is to think of the part of my brain that is damaged with illness, the part of the brain that produced so many terrible, terrible voices, this could be the same sort of thing that is happening to our brains with the sexual stimulation toward children, a way of turning on itself and trying to incriminate and ridicule. There is no doubt that the sexual pleasure and pain is extreme, and exceeds even the standards of illness, but the brain that is ill may do things backward, or get confused, the brain that is ill due to the targeting. One thing for sure, this will make us look awful in front of all of the media and many other people who are here watching, they would love to see me accused of child abuse in order to justify their targeting/torture. The thing that helps me is to get angry inside and tell the brain to not do this, think through the whole moment so that it rolls right off of me and I don't actually react to anything or reply to the stimulation.