From what I get hit with it, the only real sense of relief comes from a hot shower running over my head, and for the first 2 to 3 minutes, its like heaven, to be released from the crippling pain.
I'm in a series of hard days, today is no different, with electric headache to the very top of my head that goes deep inside and energy over me, waves of it come on and off like someone has hit me over the head and I will pass out. Then I get laser induced plasma too.
I'm losing this war I feel, because when the pain gets unbearable I drink alcohol and its now become an addiction. They have been hitting me for the past year and half just about constantly, every day, I don't feel I can take anymore.
There is no end in sight, I feel the end is going to mean death. I continue to write my poems as an outlet and to spread the word. Its a terrible existence.