The year I became aware that I was being watched, laughed at, criticized, played with and left for dead, was the year that the internet came out, 1994, so these people who are tuning in, they are either viewing me through the internet or through satellite, or both. I have never gotten the proof that I am being watched, and so, the mental anguish of trying to get inside the minds of others who know about this, to know what they know, has been crippling. These people have withheld all of the information I need to (1) feel that I am not crazy, (2) prove to my parents and my friends, (3) find a lawyer, (4) remove the barriers that keep me from taking part as a natural citizen in this world. Who are these people? The radio stations, mainly DJ's. The news media, television, print, internet from around the world. People in my town who are either asked to keep tabs on me, or feel the need to out of a duty to protect the town and my children from me. Certain people in society like hospital administrations, college researchers, government officials, military and NASA personnel. People that I wonder are watching me: former friends, boyfriends, teachers, classmates. All in all, there is a sizable amount of people who are withholding information from me, causing such mental distress that it makes daily life difficult. They are guilty of the way I am made to feel: anguish, frustration, anger, helplessness, hopelessness, on top of a very serious paranoid condition. They perpetuate this crime and push it further into the future with no hope for getting it resolved. They haven't come forward for 15 years, and they, likely, never will. It is a grand conspiracy, masterfully done and hidden in the every day workings of the world.
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