I having a hard time right now.
I keep on going over a situation I call betrail.
With no one to talk to I find myself in a sort of a relationship with the Perps. They comment on every thought I have. I want to take complete
control of my life. I am no in a position that want to tell me who I should fall in Love with. I want to ignore them but the people around me remind me that I still have him. They cough or hum "you still have him" when I ignore him. Wished I had friends who were near me. I like that I have you other TI's but can't take you to place with me or share a meal with. You are the only one who understand me. The rest of the people around me don't care or listen my cry for help. I can't hang with hypocrites. The are all under the influance of the Perp. They support eachother. The fail to see my pain. They don't believe I am in danger. It's really lonely. I need to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am jurning for it so badly. There are Bullies every where I go. I don't like this life it's full of pain and suffering.
I comfort myself with singing, But they busted my throath. My voice is damaged. I have the need to heard and loved. Isolated and pushed aside as if I am not human. The only help that was offer was to check myself in a mental hospital to get some rest. Rest eh? It would be horrible. People I use to talk to have become strangers to me. I let go and walk lose any one who fake.
I Perp is going on and on about how I haven't got any friends. He's happy about that. The male Perp loves to do the things to me I read on the website about our torture. He starts to torture me in the same way some of you are being tortured.
Every enjoyment I have is another reason for them to hate me and torture me some more. The torture are really heavy. I know that Electronical rape is a thing to bring me down. So rapes me over and over again. It's affective and I shout out loud inside my head and get very angry. I don't want to go into too many details about that.
You see loving me wrong for a whole lot of people nowadays.
When people take away love from the are happy. They already have friends and family, but they don't want me to have the same.
As sit here and go on and on about my problems, I start to feel better that you can hear me my friends. The Perp is trying to do the same with his followers. He trying to keep them informed about my situation. So they can mock me some more. All I can feel is hate coming from them.
I am lonely that's why this blog is so long.
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