Well, I still get my anxiety, but now it seems like they are desperate to torture me. They send microwaves to my brain and cause my neck to jerk for a few seconds or more. A while back I went into this neck and arm jerking mode and I started to shake rapidly for about 30 seconds + at a time. I told my grandma about it and she didn't believe me until I started to do it in front of her. She eventually took me to the hospital and they gave me a benadrill shot to calm my nerves but I still shook rapidly afterwards. Now since that day, I'll feel the pulse of the direct energy hit my head and cause my neck to jerk for a couple of seconds and on top of that, they send a thought my head shaking rapidly to scare me and make me think they are going to do that again. It's even worse when I have my "anxiety" attack. First I'll have a image of my head shaking rapidly and then the words, five, four, three, two, one...BANG YOUR DEAD! HA HA HA! play in my head over and over to scare and frustrate me. I'm learning more and more about what they can do to me and how to cope with it. I still haven't found any place that uses a Geiger counter. I would rather have someone use that on me when I get these anxiety attacks because I think they are sending even more energy to my brain when it happens.
I just wanted to re-post what happens when I get my anxiety attacks. Here's what happens when I get anxiety.
So far so good, it's all in the hood - to create fear.
Damn it James! - creates fear
You ever get the feeling that something bad is going to happen. - To make me paranoid.
What was that noise, where did they come from? Look out!- creates fear.
Don't do it James! Jameeeessss! - like there will be a bad consequence if I do do it.
I guess this is thus the beginning of the end. - fear
You ever get the feeling that your being watched. - paranoia and fear and an increase in heart rate with pressure in my head.
In the next 5, 4, 3, 2, 1, Bang your dead! HA HA HA HA HA! - fear
Are you listening!? No, he's not listening. - ?
Bump, bump, bump - sounds of what may be drums hitting, usually goes with a thought. Weird.
Too bad James! - ?
There's no time, hurry, hurry! There's no time - fear
Stupid mother fucker god damn piece of shit! - a put me down thought, to make me feel worthless and scared.
Are you ready for this? - ?
This is the shit that I have to go through when they cause these anxiety attacks. Now try hearing (if you do) over and over this shit until a.) I take an ambien (sleep medication) or b.) I force myself to fall asleep to make it go away.
Any suggestions?
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