During sexual attacks, we may actually start to like it as a means of coping with the invasion to our bodies, and this is the way the brain compensates for being violated, it doesn't know how to cope and therefore, finds an escape through pleasure instead of pain.During torture, the brain does the same thing, it is not sure how to process long duration of electronic pain to the head, so the (voices, thoughts, mind set) is to start to like it as a way of dealing with the overwhelming sense of never getting out of it, or of it killing them. There is some truth to the fact that the the person who is being killed falls in love with his killer right before he dies. For me, being driven down with electronic torture felt like being taken down in flames, and my brain kept saying, "Sweet torture," it was the way I escaped when the certainty of pain could not possible be acknowledged enough as being bad.
I have read that one being violated will eventually become like their violater, or even befriend the violater, as a means of coping with the trama of being helpless to defend one's self. Over the years I have watched this happen manny times, as the corrupt seek to ruin the innocent.
Its from talking with my therapist and other people who have been severely abused, and from my own personal experience. What is important to understand is that we are not perverted in this sense, its what the brain does to reach a point of coping.
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I got angry too as a means of coping, but I knew I couldn't win, and my mind was not right.