For the one who's milking this issue for what it's worth, go back to your bases where you can stand arrogant knowing you are holding on a string both the right and the left.
Divide and conquer that has always been your tack from the get-go.
Except that I never allowed you to use me in hurting and maligning the ones who you wanted me to attack.
Do not ever mistake the stand I am making now as victory on your side for you managed to have me make a stand against the people you were shaping me to hate even as a young child.
If I am making a stand against them now, it is because of what they have done and what they have allowed YOU to DO, through them.
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I only have this to ask of my family:
When did my siblings start associating with them? Only a few years. And in that short a span of time, they were able to decimate our family - the same way they had the clan go at each other's throat, behind closed doors.
In that short a time you do not even see anything wrong with having them attack your own and you even take the center-stage for them.
Do you not see the irony?
I was the one who was with them my entire life , minus about 3 years when I already knew I've had it.
Do you not even see why they still had good relations with you and my siblings and they can not openly attack you unlike the way they attack other members of the clan.
Because all the times I was with them, I never indulged them in their attempts to have me go against you.
I am saying this now, since I know you have a grasp of how they attack other branches of the family tree:
I have grown up knowing how their lead figure so hated my father. He actually hates all of you, except that his rancor for my father is more "special" in that he scoffs at any successes he thinks people "just believe" my father has. All my life I have seen how he considers my father's failures as his successes.
Did I let him affect my view of you? Did I let him attack you through me?
Not ever.
All the while when they would cajole me into going against any of you, I never gave in to their manipulation. All my life I tried to dumb myself and not make concrete what I was observing what I was sensing because I loved them as I love you. I will forever thank them for lending me one of the very few people who showed me I was worth loving. That's why it took this long to finally bring this out in the open.
Even when I so wanted to protect myself, I couldn't because I know how the person who taught me what loving really is so loved them. I know she wouldn't want all of us to go against each other. So I took the only route I know I could take. Stay away from all of you.
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