When the time comes for me to die. I wish to die with dignity. 8 Years of Hell, 2 years chronic pain, all this pain and suffering is really hard to deal with. I wish to die peacefully like Bruce Lee in his sleep. Everyday I pray for Death but it never comes. I choose death because I want to be free from my perps. Living a life under control, abuse, and violation is a life not worth living. The best analogy I could use is I am a tiger trapped in a human zoo. I'm here physically but my spirit died a long time ago. Each day is misery! I am not content because what has transpired against me. Human beings were born free and I believe I have that right to end my life if I choose it. It's like telling God I quit! I had enough BS everyday. Getting mocked and ridiculed. Once they targetted me my life was over. The feeling of being a rape victim almost. I have no trust. The stupid thing is I can't even get assisted suicide in my country. My perspective is I am defeated. I throw in the towel because I can't overcome these impossible obstacles. I put up a good fight but in the end it wasn't enough.
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