While in the trip to this airport the person who was seating just in front of me in the next double seat turned towards me occasionally and said that I come to die in this state. This person - a woman - and other people, tried to make me as uncomfortable as possible. At some point the person that was seating besides me, a woman, started to feel uncomfortable with me. It was the beginning of a campaign of continuous harassment.
Here I am looked as a contaminated undesirable individual as soon as I arrived. With many stories running about - and against me. It was also the first place where electronic harassment was used against me. It is impossible to describe the negative effect that the voice to skull had on me. Also, hate songs were created to reinforce the attacks by specific part of the population who liked that specific music - very violent. The message was death. A video was also created. In the video I - or the person that was supposed to be me - was killed. Everybody was talking about that.
It is very difficult to describe the whole situation because it had unbelievably cruel episodes, one of the most dramatic ones was how they addressed my family and they run a story saying that my family was dead and that I did not like my mother. That story was precisely the one that had a terrible dual effect. In what refers to me it set me in disbelief for at least 3 months, trying to verify what was in fact happening with my family. In what refers to the people around me - they did not want to see me or talk with me at all. It was total rejection. I had never confronted a situation like this in my whole life. So I stayed motionless in the airport for at least a week, trying to find out the reason of all this. Obviously, I had never been a transexual in my whole life, so this seemed to be an intrigue created based on situations that, for being very scarce a unique in my life, I could spot very easily. Also I started to think who could have created the whole thing and everything pointed to the same people. I said started. Because I am sure that there were others that took the information from these starters and created something dangerous, based on lies, carefully designed. It is happening to other people now. But at that moment obviously, I thought that it was my only problem.
So I started to believe that there was a group of criminals who had been trying to destroy my life. I was not so wrong about that, but there was more.
According to my state of mind at that specific moment there was one only option, to run away from the people who had been threatening me at the hotel, the airport and more. So I ended up petrified, without options, at the airport corridors, with people harassing me and commenting about me everywhere. That created the biggest shock that I have experienced in my whole life. Those who were in charge of destroying me had ample powers, could find my location at any time and act accordingly. Apparently the plan was not to let me relax never. So I started to move from one place to another to avoid harassment, but the excitement and destructive comments about me were everywhere, a few days after this, my whole life was going to be changed. Powerful forces had been used against me and I was unable to descipher all the tactics and strategies used.
The first thing that I did was to go to the stairways of the train. I did not have too much money left. It was very, very cold. The wind hit me and from that moment on I think that I lost real contact with the world of comfortable people. The one that I had belonged to all of my life.
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