i want to end this pain

[suzy]

This life is too hard to live. All i want to do is throw myself into my mothers arms and cry non-stop telling her everything im going through, but of course no-one believs me. This is somewhat the most painful part, the inability to get support from the people you love. Im thinking of ending my life, really feeling so much pain its unbearable. I want to take an overdose. Im doing all the wrong things, smoking pot, drinking, dabbling in heroin all in an effort to escape. I hate this existence , i cant find anything to live for anymore.  They have stolen all I love and all I live for. Sorry to be so negative i dont mean to depress anyone,  I just dont know why im here anymore except to suffer. So much for all my plans and dreams - everything is broken by them!!