My Pain!

Hello Everyone,
 I pray to that superpower to give u the strength to endure the pain and patience to go through these  Hi-Tech attacks.
My name is Shashi Kant and I am from Hiimachal Pradesh (India), I am suffering from Voice to Skull Harassment , all of  this started with gangstalking in early 2005 which made me isolated and emotionally weak. Afterwards, they started using emotional voices to make me believe as if they care about me and since then like a puppet I kept doing whatever they wanted from me. This had a great impact on my ability to rationalize, plan and to stay optimist in life. 
All of this is a consequence of a technology which is forbidden and the years of research they did over my attitude towards life and society. As we all know that childhood is the phase where we explore our world and formulate some beliefs about our world which in turns shapes our personality, but for me it was a complete mess. If I look back at my past- where I had lost time in learning the ways which my perpetrators wanted me to know- makes me feel stupid and ignorant. I came to know about this technology a bit late in my life, on one hand though- it represents the understanding of the human about the physical laws of nature while on the other hand it shows off the Ugly face of Human society which is filled with greed, self -desires and lack of human/moral values. My life up till now is filled with synthetic stimulation of my senses which had an adverse effect on what I think and my ability to form a will to do a task. Half of it is ruined by their experiments/set-ups and the other half  is still in agony about what I'd lost as a person.
We live in a world which we call a well civilized society, but after what I have been through it made me think about the difference in between animals and humans. Any ways following passages gives a small snapshot of what I have been through.
Since my school-life, I am a part of an Organised gangstalking. Initially, they started analysing and understanding my social relationship and behaviour. They manipulated my weaknesses and then they started using their powers to emotionally blackmail me. It was my 3rd year in Btech from the UIIT college in Himachal Pradesh University when they started using Voice to skull technology which included continuous voices disrupting my cognition/memory.
I think their initial research allowed them to make this attack well-planned and powerful enough to disrupt my social life entirely.
I finished my bachelor in 2008 and was fortunately placed in a Software firm. In the same year recession happened and I was made to search for a different job.I have a work experience of 2 years in two different organisations(Dell and Spice Digital). On one hand my perpetrators were successful to made me believe that I am socially inferior to have friends, girl friend,  and on the other hand they were able to make my mind believe that everything is okay.
I took decision to leave INDIA and wanted to do something in the field of Animation and Media so I left to Great Britain a year ago.  It was in Britain where I realized that these things have scientific justification so I went through different resources which enlightened my understanding of these attacks and to know that almost every nation has someone who is undergoing these attacks, gave me more confident to share my story with others. The weird thing about these attacks were- that they never caused any issues to air-flights  when I was travelling and the voices were still powerful regardless of my position. Moreover, I was surprised when they first started different brainwashing techniques when I was in Britain (in 2010-2011). They used  Hypnosis while  I was watching computer screen which at times was responsible for the fluid coming out of my mouth as if I am in Trance, there was obstruction while breathing which resulted  in lack of concentration, i'd hard time while gathering my thoughts. Most of the time when i speak or read something, I've this weird feeling with some words which annoys me a lot, I realized it has something to do with the past situation where I felt uncomfortable with some words( like technology, composition which I guess aren't hard to pronounce and comprehend). I came to know about the ability of my perpetrators to record and transmit subliminal messages containing emotions(a mental state) with the help of the Voice to skull technology.
Besides this it included flashing of Images of all people which I came across throughout the day which was really hard to get along with. Gangstalking by different people on me from Shopping Malls, University to my room was some of their old methodology whenever they found me ignoring them. I tried my level best to interact with people and to move on however I failed may be I was too weak for this. My perpetrators use to say " we won't let you move ahead unless you surrender".
After analysing their acts for past a decade I came to the conclusion that they wanted me to get along with some woman whom I had no relationship whatsoever since my child hood. Although in my childhood I had a crush on her which was manipulated by my perpetrators later on to emotionally blackmail me in different situations. Initially they made me believe that I am in love with this woman by suggesting that she cares a lot about me. While on the other hand they convince me that my actions has a direct impact on her life. I formulated this notion of depending too much on my perpetrators  even to make a small decision in my life. 
I realized from their actions, that the woman and her  husband are the main individuals to plot all this to screw me and are responsible for my isolated life. They keep on changing their motive behind these attacks whenever I try to think about why this is happening to me?
They try to convince me that this woman is the only person who can save me from these miseries and if I do not follow what they are saying  I won't be allow to move ahead. At the same moment I keep on thinking now within few years anyone can use this technology and it would be common for people to resolve their personal issues with this, which indeed is a great threat to anyone in the world.
I came back to INDIA last year in November and I am still fighting with these perpetrators , the only thing which I use to tell myself is that no matter what happens to me from here on I won't surrender to the lame hypocrisy.  I think I know the name of the couple who are behind this, however due to lack of evidence I cannot do anything as of now and the state of helplessness is still going on for me.
This is  a small snapshot which still not explains other abuses such as Sexual abuse, sleep deprivation, pain in some part of the body and other body disorders which are quite common in V2K. 
Moreover, this summary may not answer all hows and whys, as I wrote it for other TIs here to tell them my part of the story and I think most of this would be self-explanatory. I will appreciate people sharing their knowledge about how they are tackling with this problem. I came to know about this a bit late in my life, however I still hope that we (TIs) while  sharing our knowledge can give these people a tough fight.
The resources and websites like peacepink are great ways of socializing with other Tis and to learn about these attacks. Since I' ve joined peacepink, I have seen people spamming inbox and broadcasting the same message all over the website, in such situation it feels a bit odd to share all of your personal information here, however one can send me a message and I will try to get back to you (via email)as soon as possible.
Remember like you people(Tis) I have lot to share which I found it hard to put in words. 
Thanks for reading,
Shashi Kant.
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