I am now gonna write about the most painful parts I wanted to save for last.
I was waiting for these people to develop a conscience.
I wanted so much to protect them from the consequences of the pain they inflicted on me, even if it meant I had to wait this long.
I loved them that much.
I trusted them that much.
Sadly, it was misplaced love.
It was misplaced trust.
I am doing this now.
God, please help me.
Please let my words be tempered by your love for all of us.
May the truth unfold but may I do it with your thoughts, with your words, with your heart.
I have to pray for this and to request that I be covered by prayers of those who believe in you as well for I know how angry I am at this point.
I am going thru the same health issues I had when they first played with this technology... the same health issue that took the life of the person who taught me what selfless love really is.
I am witnessing how my kid is suffering the ordeal as well.
I am witnessing how the person we are with is changing as well.
I will not die without fighting for the rights of my kid to have a normal life.
I will not die without fighting for the innocent girl that I was that they destroyed.
I will not die without fighting for the lives of those they have also played with and those lives they are gonna control next.
God, please bw with me. Please lead the way. This battle is yours. I am gonna fight it your way.
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Their unforgiving ways make me think why they should be the ones having that burden (of unforgiveness) when they were the ones who played with my life and tried various ways to set me up.
Shouldn't I be the one struggling with unforgiveness?
I have tried so many times to forgive them.
...how can I continually do that though if they use that as an excuse to hurt me all the more?
Economic, spiritual, intellectual, moral, physical.. Name it they've done it...
Just so they cover up the story how they destroyed me, harassed me, morphed the life of an innocent kid into the wasted life I have now.
I'm not gonna let them do that to others as well.
No longer.
Thanks.
I wanted to write about the compendium of events, situations, people who made this evil harassment go non-stop throughout more than a decade in a way that will touch on my stories with the people I personally know on the last part, saving the most painful for last.
I was wishing there would still be time for them to correct what they have done so we both wouldn't need to go through the heart-wrenching details of the exposition.
I guess I no longer have that much time. They have allowed me to be attacked on all fronts and my health may give out before the truth will come out.
I will not let that happen.
I will write about the diverse, scattered story pieces by and with people who chose to get embroiled in the mess orchestrated by sociopaths who think they have the liberty to play with people's lives.
Those who will be in the various story pieces, I am sorry, I did my best to reach out to you and ask that you please stop.
I can't do that any longer.
This battle is God's.
God please temper my spirit that the words that will come out will be aligned with yours.
I really need to be covered by prayers right now.
It's difficult to be strong in faith when surrounded by devils who try to take God's peace every step of the way.
And to think one of them is supposed to be christian.