When you open up, people tend to think that they are better than you is my experience in general. They have 56 000 advices to give you before getting the whole picture. Because my life is destroyed, they tend to think I'm an inferior. So I'm going to shut up and pretend that nothing happened to me even though I really was extremely abused at multiple levels. I'm capable of playing the ''superior'' if this is what I have left to do. Instead of begging for help, I'm going to be the smarty pants. After all, I'm smarter and wiser than most people. I want to kill my victimization because I'm sick and tired of not being heard like I should. This life is too discouraging, most people think they are superior to me so now I'm about to make a 180 degree change in my life, I'm the smarty pants. Hey I need to adapt to what I'm used to get since the last 10 years !! (I'm used to be in a situation where people can just lift their little finger for me to change my life since 10 years and THEY F***ING DON'T!!) After all, I'm a professional and I specialized with dealing with the f***ing psychopaths, and I surely am not the one who made that choice, this choice was imposed to me. Be mindful of what you add as comments here because I'm just about to make the move.
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Oh and before somebody will ''interpret'' what I have just said about beating the crap out of the psychopaths and raising my middle finger to them, I did not mean WITH PHYSICAL MEANS OF COURSE BECAUSE THE BATTLE IS SPIRITUAL but I had to mention it because I think somebody just told me by posting this video above that I am ''an insignificant little f**k'' so I am returning the compliment where it is coming from and where it belongs. Garbage given, garbage turned back
I know myself. The last thing I need is to hide under the carpet as if I would be shit. I really was extremely abused at multiple levels. And I do have experience of 10 years of compounded traumas one on the top of the other one and nobody lifting their little finger for me so my knowledge of myself as well as my experience of 10 years maybe does not matter to you but matters to me and this is without considering the fact that my own mother was a T.I. but when I was a child, I thought that I was deserving hatred so I was hating myself. I'm not going to get back there. The best way of stopping my victimization is to kill it, which I'm going to do.