After all the madness they put me in, they dont realy stop.
the dutch apear in my dreams as the idear of individualism ideologie. the dreams are like if i was in netherlands loking for a place to stand on hollidays near a coffeshop. In the same time they try to convince me to "give them my hand"?! as they speak to me directly by V2K. They are realy trying to convince me to join them.
Many people are involved, i dont know if its for fear or what. Some know, some dont know.....
As i ended sex activity, because they interfere in many forms, since the begining, they proceed with sex dreams where i ended with an orgasm...no realy need the detail...again and again an d again and again and again and again....
Involuntary erections are frequent as well....etc.....
In the mean time all my actions and thoughts have consequencies, phisical consequencies like...........soleimavis discribes.
we need to do something right way. Im not going to have 10 years of this sheet!!
As we try to ignore the problem as a survivel answer to the problem, i think, peolple who are involved with this people, some of them stil my friend, do the same thing as well_ ignoring the problem and try to see something good in this shet. cause i know they are not bad. cause as some way we fight this thing we ignore it to go on with our lifes.
In the mean time we have to be carefull with feed desorders as i got some that lead me to hiatos hernia. 2 or 3 times i wake with nightmares for a night for months, .with all this shet i get 120 Kg, had 700 triglycerides and 280 cholesterol.
As we try to discribe this sheet, we get to the conclusion that nothing realy discrbe it. there are no words for this. As i say it to my friends they think im eccentric.
Im getting medication at small portions to stand
Suicide is allways close. Are we some kind of tamagoshi or what???????????
They invade every thing of my life....my work..everything...no words for this...
They created a fear in me on doing anything.
they dont realy stop!! And i dont know what to do.
We must do an international tetition where we can unite all Tis.
Thanks anyway to all
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