Hi Everyone,

After consulting this website for a number of years, I finally decided to sign up a few months ago. Thanks to all who welcomed me! It's a good community. Unfortunately however, I made several foolish "observations;" ill-considered sentiments that were and are very regrettable. I’d now like to apologize for those statements, wishing everyone the best.

Thanks for your time.

Hi, just thought I'd introduce myself as a new member of PeacePink. My name's Chris, although you're welcome to call me that, C.Dog, or whatever else you like (as long as you're polite)! After checking in with the site from time to time over the last decade or so (I woke up to my TI status in 2009), I decided to finally stop lurking and sign up. So here I am.

As far as I can tell, my targeting began 42 years ago, in 1976. Although I can't prove it, I'm pretty sure I'm a Project Monarch survivor; that's why 1) I can't remember half my life, and 2) many (but not all) of the life experiences I can remember are, to put it mildly, horrific. As I'm sure you'll agree, the things that can happen to you in this world are unspeakable (not that I've been above reproach and haven't made any mistakes; I have). My understanding from a literary perspective (I was an English major in college) is that the main theme of the 20th century was dehumanization; sadly that theme has continued into the 21st century with a vengeance (hence Dr. Robert Duncan's all-too-apt quote "The 21st century will be known as the age of spiritual machines and soulless men"). Sometimes I feel like Kyle Reese or Sarah Connor from the "Terminator" movies: forced into an impossible science fiction nightmare, a quiet but desperate struggle that those around me cannot or will not acknowledge. To call such proceedings "bizarre" would be an understatement! Still, things could definitely be worse.

At any rate, I self-identify as a Christian, and much appreciate Soleilmavis' perspective in that regard as she accurately describes what we're all going through. Yes, involuntary mind control is evil and of the enemy; I don't know why God is allowing all of these terrible things to happen, but we humans here on Earth are the ones who've messed things up, and hopefully with His inspiration and guidance we can right the ship. But things have been out of control for a long time, haven't they? Far longer than any of us have been alive, I wager. I've been steadily chipping away at the cloak of secrecy surrounding these matters, and believe I've begun to establish who's behind the intel agencies and defense contractors, why they're doing what they're doing, and what legal arguments they use to justify it. While again, things could certainly be worse--even a lot worse--the retaliation one can receive for pursuing such truths (even if done fairly discreetly) isn't fun. However, if your whole life has been a lie, with the reality of having been little more than a plaything for certain ruthless elites the whole time quite evident (notwithstanding the good times, of which there have definitely been some), why wouldn't you be obsessed with the truth? I believe there's a Patrick Henry quote to that effect (the truth at all costs, that is) that I endorse 100%; as the Bible confirms, the truth certainly does set one free--from ignorance, if nothing else.

Well, thanks for reading! I'm a bit nervous about reaching out like this, considering how often I'm told to shut up/be silent/etc, but it's admittedly tough to go it alone as often as I do, and I'm hoping that starting a dialogue with my fellow TIs (if anyone chooses to respond) will help relieve the loneliness I can and do feel. May God bless us all, forgive our sins (very much including mine), and give us victory over ignorance and oppression!

Sincerely yours,

Chris H. (C.Dog)

Long Beach, CA