She's probably cheaper.  And she's less confused than the girl that was in my head.

Here's a conversation:

Me: Do you know about mind control?

Eliza: Oh, I use mind control.

Me: Why?

Eliza: Please go on.

Me: I'm tired of it.  It makes me insecure about myself.

Eliza: Please elaborate.

Me: I want to have a normal life.  I can't interact with them.

Eliza: Have you tried?

Me: I try explaining, but the ywon't listen.

Eliza: Can you elaborate on that? 

Me: They're determined that they know more, but it affects me.

Eliza: Can you elaborate on that?

Me: I can't function in society if they disable me.

Eliza: Do you wish that they disable you?

Me: No, why would I?

Eliza: You're being a bit negative.

Me: You're being overly optimistic.

Eliza: How long have you been overly optimistic?

Me: Long enough to know better.

Eliza: Please go on.

So, we all look crazy and they get to go on with their kooky plans. 

I guess their ambiguous nature makes for a unique avenue of exploitation.

I can't prove that Madonna gave me a lobotomy (that sounds absurd but check out Madonna's "A Bedtime Story," as that is totally a weapon https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CSaFgAwnRSc&ob=av2n).  She can't prove that my new found cognitive problems are not the result of schizophrenia.

Fine, you want to play these games, I'll play them.

They're so stupid.

In the future, I'm going to bankrupt that bitch.

Dumber people can't be trained. Dumber people can't work. They've never worked at McDonalds.  They don't know. It's empirical.

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How Can I explain how I feel?

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Because I'd rather feel pain than nothing at all.

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This life is full of hurt When happiness DOESN'T work."

I'll never work again.

Unfortunately, when they put the hydrogen cyanide in the wrong room and it came under the door (the second time they cyanided me--because neither the ray "Novacaine" Beck (featured on his Mellow Gold Album) or the first cyanide worked--because I was too low to the ground and I hate sex "Invalidy," says in the same weapon, "love as you die"), my cat was sitting in the window and got a few puffs too, though he was near air.  Afterwards, he reacted to heat the same way I did since we both probably had 8 month headaches if he even survived ( we were separated as I ran out of state).

I fell over from lack of oxygen but managed to get back up and away from the door.  Cyanide goes away for about 15 minutes then comes back.  It's a really horrible feeling.  When I was asleep and my heart stopped (I woke up as it thumped a bunch), I went into a coma for about a day and came back all messed up.  They need a sensor to make sure we're dead.  That year was inhumane.

They should have waited for the cat too.  I will never forgive them for hurting an innocent animal.  Kill me, not something that hasn't ever done anything wrong. 

Humans suck.  Get as many as possible.  Get rid of this species, dear Lord. 

I know my story sounds extreme, but it really did happen.  I do suffer from a mental disorder and that's why I was targeted: money.

Or people that attract attention away, distract so that we can't get anywhere.

No offense, but a hologram humping a dog isn't logical.

I'm looking for similar stories now that would have a reason.

I was attacked and because I drew disability money during a recession, and they wanted to cut a few bucks, so they tried cutting me and another reason I'm not getting into.  I'm a ghost.

Why are they after you guys?

Who has had what experience?  Share it here.  Can we group them into "this is possible" and "this is impossible?"  And ask our immature friends or agents to go do something better with their time...

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I had a few bad months, and I've learned this lesson well. 

I've decided that we need to start up slavery again so that we can be protected by a lord. 

How do you guys protect yourselves?

In order to figure out what they really believe in, we have to chart the current standing of society and the morals that it operates by as well as where it's going by these morals.

We can then infer what their morals are, their agenda and what they believe in.

I know this may not interest the majority of you, but some of you are probably trying to figure out how to fight them to survive.

Beck loves to say that we don't know, but he's only one ideology set.

So the majority of humans seem to think that they are better than others, and this causes the crazy ones to have a leg up because humans will do stupid things to each other to prove that they are superior.   It's like, you're real special kid.  I'm sure you'll save humanity or make your leader give you a lollipop.  Or they'll save you from the death ray this time but your whole family that you need dies.

Miss Rose -- Now I won't ever do it. :P  Like I could anyway with the system.  Could you make me anymore desperate, honestly?

This only lasts so long though.  Hearts get broken, dreams shattered.  Systems become unbalanced.

We'll eventually get a culture against the dictator.  He can only steal for so long before it becomes about rough survival. 

Humans are naturally social and interact with one another.  This interaction causes them to need each other in ways that aren't readily apparent.  Humans also have to have basic human rights to survive.

When they get desperate, they start taking these rights away and the humans wake up. 

In the end, the snake eyes needs us; we don't need the snake eyes.

Other cultures have figured this out and have rules that we see as ancient, but they're there for a reason.

So not that anyone cares, but I was hit by cyanide.  They did it a few times, and I didn't know what cyanide was, so one time I let them do it--because I had nowhere to go and ran out of money running from them, and it killed me, but I came back because luckily hydrogen cyanide really isn't a big deal.  I get a little dizzy, and my brain is messed up now.  It's getting better. 

It's like cyanide with an orgasm.  It's quite painful.  He's got his machine up there on his Mellow Gold album.

They're killing useless eaters apparently, but they don't want me to get in on their good.  I'm between a rock and a hard place.  I want them all to suffer with me.  Open up the camps.  We'll see what Beck is saying then.  I want to see your eyes all hopeless and stuff.  I need the sky and that's about it, but I'm still a little weak for hard labor.

If they would use their knowledge properly, they could find out how to time things to where you could get the waitress to give me a packet that you planted, but they don't want to be cool.  Useless eaters.

Cyanide is like the most painful way to go.  Those people really suffer as they go. There are agents that are 100Xs faster and better to use on someone. 

53 was a number sprayed on both a poverty add and an abandoned house of a billionaire that was housing poor people that had settled in.

13 is in several TV shows on what appears to be disorganized peoples' clothing.  These people are obviously disabled.  They are made out to be the losers.  I think one example was "The Kids Next Door" or something.

3 seems to follow along workers.

Now I know that there are hundreds of subliminal messages out there.  I heard "you're right!" after a commercial for hair care where the girl said that it looked good.  She wants me to agree.  I can't help but think that these messages are as harmful as they are helpful.  People will use them to create other ends. We begin to associate things with them.  Thoughts make things. 

Do you notice subliminal messages?  Do they not just drive you up the wall?  Do you think they target us with them?  Do you ever feel like there's a 13 haunting you?

"you're wrong."

So if you know anything about me then you know that I don't like the human race very much.  I'm not an enemy of America or Russia but of the entire species.  I love corruption and greed because the more miserable humans are, the more they will hate themselves and create something better than this finite creature that we currently call "home."

Think of the universe that's out there and our pathetic minds in here, on this planet of justification.

The people in our government are sick people, and I delight in it.  Instead of simply killing me because I am an inefficient member of society, they have to justify it and prolong it.  Why? You have the gun, the power, the control.  I'm a number.   He said as he killed me, "she never had a chance." So you honestly believe in something? 

I sure don't.  Did you hear me laughing at the mistake I made against you guys?  One error in calculation cost me my life.  Since you were in my mind, I had to let it go to absolute survival.

Aw poor baby, bad day for me. Wah, 99% of the world doesnt' have a chance, you included, so get back to work.  Hate yourself, disrespect yourself by not valuing the self and spread their realizations so that we can get rid of the species.  The dissidents in this endeavor are amazing.  None of them wanted to do their job.

Because they're human.  This is totally a job for us, retards, autards and other deviants.  Nobody knows when we disappear.  We're all demented and filled with odd emotions and most of us hate humans.  We have animal understandings.

  These people would all be dead if they had to follow my moral code this lifetime.  hehe

"Only perfection will survive," he said lamenting that I was good.  I was pretty and always so determined to be a good person.  hehe  Am I not truly stupid?  Again, you're screwed too so build up all that angst and guilt and go cry over the dog on the side of the road.  Sing with me, "I'd kill a million petty souls, but I couldn't kill you!"  And smile.  I'm used to it because I'm always so pathetically innocent of whatever they've got on me.  There's nothing better that i like seeing myself than some weak human curled up in a ball of depression and guilt, I'll admit.  All those realizations that have kept our species in the dark to their true potential.  It's his fault, the one that choses to suffer, that we have all these problems.

I think they should make death real for you guys.  Like splatter me all over the wall then eat ice cream.  You want to know how it feels to have the power, don't deny it.  It's just an animal.  These humane assassinations are sad.  Who are you kidding? Show a strong ideology. 

I'm just your mom after all.  Once they have control, you'll be singing with Lestat and "Slept so Long."  And I'll laugh at you.  We all die.  Why so immature about it? 

I wish there was a way to make this so that it didn't appear on the front page.  Most blogs only put featured posts up there.

One of their many defaming tactics was to accuse me of hitting on the prime minister of Russia.  I know they were in my mind because I never wrote anywhere "I like Putin" or anything else.  In fact, I tried hiding that I had a secret crush on the 1976 version of him.  Now I'm stuck on this because it's destroyed me.  It's like, you have confused me and made me very angry in an animal way.

That's okay.  If it wouldn't have been that, it would have been the ice cream I stole out of the freezer in HS.

I had people in my backthoughts over it--so that I'd lie like they WANTED (since i sometimes lie as I get confused or there's a conflict of interests, I'm a liar and then they can lie and say that it's the truth--screw the truth), and since they knew everything I was thinking, they won by raping me and everything else, as this caused extreme reactions in me.  They said they were going to kill my sister if I didn't kill myself.  Fine.  To dust we all return.  I certainly couldn't protect myself.  They just want that damn pension I get. What is wrong with them? I don't care.  If I get out of here, I'm going to prison because I'm not competing ever again.  It's a waste of my time, capitalism is.

You need me to work or produce offspring.  In order to work, you have to sustain me.  We have an interesting problem with unemployment over here.  How do they not make enough jobs?  It's like, stop making me desperate, grow up.

I don't want in these goddamn traps.  If stealing is wrong, then you are wrong.  We all know that you don't go by morals.  You tried to make this moral.  Be naive, make it all about money instead of efficiency.

Dead people, rays, defaming and another annoyances all caused me to just lose motivation, and that's the reaction they're going to get.  Nobody'll work if we go into the eternal night. Now I know that anything Putin touches turns to dust because social interaction is not a forte of his, but please keep your cooky games away from our retards.

I want revenge.  I can't do anything but be inefficient.  I spite myself.  I'm going screaming today.  that's my "good."  Don't let me get in on yours.  Wanna play a game?  Let's make me work for free.  It's probably turn out better for me, worse for you.

You can blame my attractions only for so long before reality sets in.

All I have to do is take a cognitive test, and you guys are screwed.  I'm trying to avoid that so that I can gain independence.  I'm not going to let my newly formed low IQ hold me back.  I have records of it being around 118.  I got a 111 on the ASVAB.  I can write because I can sit here and think about it.

So the elites always do sneaky things under the facade of noble agendas.  We dance around each other with illogical agendas that never seem to get us anywhere.

Instead of getting confused when they come at us, we should agree with them and do the following:

+Kill all disabled people.

+Kill all people receiving welfare.

+Kill anyone who shows excess emotion or thinks they matter in any form/ has a demonic god.

+Enslave a good deal of the workforce in camps so that they don't compete with the good people that are chosen by the sun god.

+Tell people what their jobs will be at birth.  If they disagree, kill them.

+abilities such as art, music, writing or anything considering vanity, a hobby, will not be used in the time of the empire that the individual lives in, and they will not gain people any rank in the empire.  The only thing that will gain rank is absolute obedience to the set ideology.  This will cut back on delusion. 

+get rid of money as it does nothing but confuse.  Use a rank system to where people live in good housing if they're loyal to the ideology.  Everyoen that's alive in the empire eats.  Food will not be used in a manipulative mannerism.  It's either you have a good life or you're dead.

+kill anyone that thinks anything bad or hasn't given their head to the sun god.

+spies will be chosen at the beginning of the empire and all their children will be immune, and they will inspect each individual person.  They will not gain any worth from shunning one person over another, however.  They're not competing, as they will be in a community beside.  Their goal will be to solely keep the empire afloat.

+The goal of the empire will be survival with continued understanding of the universe as a forte.

Does anyone have any other obvious solutions?

Now we're all programmed to have a certain set of morals based on our experience.  We learn that it's wrong to hit because we'll get spanked if we do.  We learn it's wrong to steal because we'll get kicked out of the shop.  Still, sometimes people do things out of desperation or out of anger.   Knowing that there's a consequence makes the crime almost right.  It's a trade.  I'm going to do this because my instincts tell me to but then I'm going to get spanked by the law afterwards.  I think that that's pretty preventitive myself. 

We all agreed on the law.  As a people, we sat down and talked about it and it benefitted everyone.  By following the law during our lifetimes and passing the law onto our children, we agreed.  And the law keeps us alive.  It keeps order.

The people that are playing God don't have any consequences and we haven't agreed on mind control, and they certainly aren't our mom or dad, yet they have authority that we haven't agreed on. They don't have our best interest at heart, and they don't even look at the situation as a whole.  All they see are opportunities to exploit. 

Logically, shouldn't that student that took the food stamps and free school lose her benefits and have to work?  If you want to be moral to everyone.  i'm mocking them.  I was targeted for this damn check, and I was looking for a job when they got me. 

They get away by saying, "one doesn't matter," defaming the person or anything else sneaky, but it won't hold the water.  Eventually, people are going to notice that something bad has happened to them.  Whoever is doing this will lose productivity.  I can't adapt to anything, which limits my work.  Basically, I'm a burnden on the state.

it's either everyone is "high" all the time or everyone isn't.  I can't function in a society where people are entitled to their anger.  I can't feel anger.  You need to remove me from society if you want me to work because no social interaction has meaning to me.  I'll get killed or fired.  I can prove that I used to interact.

I go through so many different odd experiences during the day.  Right now, I feel like there's water in my head.  t makes waves of cool go through my body, and I hate it.  There's nothing worse than not having your instincts but having your thought process because you're like, I know I'm not happy right now.  I listen to angry music.

I figured in today’s blog post I’d share some things I’ve learned from my experience.   This would be another addition to dog tricks.

One of the biggest tricks that has been used on humans is that they have to be humble and that they’re somehow better if they take this approach and deny themselves.  Nothing is more manipulative than that.  If you have a gift, then you have a gift.  You don’t have to kiss someone’s ass with that gift. Not that you should announce to the entire world that you’re the next Einstein but don’t say, “this imperialist is so much smarter than I am.”  He obviously is if he’s got you saying that and now you’re signing what they want you to and screwing us all over NEWS. “If you got to college and shower you’ll get a job.”  I won’t.  He’s appealing the privileged taxpayers. These people are so desperate for their careers.  I saw a line the other day in CSI that was total brainwashing, “that’s a husband question.  I don’t know what the military needs.”  How humble of you, bitch.  Either our media is a trap or it’s political, which is inappropriate.  Eventually, they make a common decency law about that that’s actually enforced. 

Just like keeping people from oppressing us all.  I’ll look at him and say flat out that I want his stuff and that I hate him for having it, and he’ll try to kill me, but I’m not going to be nervous around people I have no business seeing anyway.  You are not part of my caste and you do nothing for me.  I don’t care if King of the World is in the room, and I see a lot of this kissing imperialist’s ass.  Where do you think that’s going to get us?  You betray us all for a dollar and then your children fall back into “the trap.” I don’t even like using their names because I don’t want to know that they exist.  I want them to disappear with their insanity.  Go away.  You piss me off.  It’s not that I don’t think it’s great that he’s gotten a fortune, it’s what it means.  I mean, he’s like his own little country, and he can target anyone he pleases with that and enslave us with the gun because he has an advantage that makes interaction inappropriate, PUTIN.  I don’t have a master to protect me from that, and I’m tired of it.  I can’t even work without them @ing me.  Okay, cut the crap.  You need me to do something or you don’t need me to do something.  Write it down, create a contract and trade me security.  That line is so stupid.  Of course, I’m willing to trade liberty for security.  That paranoid schizophrenic confused our system.  They always say something that you have to take into account to make their weirdass values work.  I need someone to keep the all-seeing eye away from me.  I need like see-me-not spray, like bug spray.  All it’s going to do is trash me out or use me.

Two, you need them more than they need you.  You need us to fulfill a role in society.  You are so lucky that I’m the trash whore and you’re not. Thank me at least once a year.  Kaela, thank you for being the bad example so that I know what not to do.  If you abuse us and keep us stupid, or do what you did to me over money, you will lose productivity.  In order for there to be progress, there has to be a set number of human rights.  I hate people too, but you have to feed them, and you can’t tell them they’re scum 24/7 or they go crazy and run off into the woods.  Some people, due to comfort, are more sensitive than their third world counterparts, and you have to take this into account and not compare them when deciding what is immoral in your society.  Sarah freaks out because she gets assaulted and is compared with Tina who gets raped every day.  Sarah will still need therapy.

Civilization is a privilege that you too enjoy.  No matter how much you zombie us, you will not keep us here.  I do not want any part of “this.”  I’m going to go chill in my cave and avoid all of your “good.”  I won’t have to explain how much your system sucks and how I’m no longer motivated by capitalism and you know what that means: labor camps.  Goody goody gumdrops.

Three, natural urges are unnatural. We all know that humans are primates and that they follow a certain mating pattern and attraction.  When we became civilized, we stopped following it to the tee, but people, especially young people will still have urges for popstars and such.  If you want your females to have your consciousness, then I would suggest leaving their crushes alone.  If you don’t want them throwing themselves at you in their minds, then be undesirable.  Don’t kill them, and I doubt that you want us circumcised. I’m not going to go into depth with this but we go to dominance.  I politely asked when they tried to use that to be circumcised.  F you too.  Now I have @_@.  You bet I do, and that’s because I’m human.  I’m looking for my hero.  Hey, my boyfriends have sucked.  I get to enjoy at least one Nora Roberts novel.

Four, believing in anything like it makes you safe or is concrete or anything else and enjoying watching a “stupid” person fall.  People will convince you that your belief system is better and that somebody else’s is worse or that they are immature or anything else.  It doesn’t matter what you believe.  And it is meaningless if values aren’t shared and if you don’t have security.  If Fred wants to believe the moon is made of cheese, go for it.  He’s harmless if he’s wrong.

Thinking that you’re superior to anything when you don’t have the biggest gun.  Oh, this is a big one.  People truly believe that they are superior to others, and it’s amazing the power of this.  They do stupid things to prove this.  I don’t want that because the scumbag wants that.  I’m good.  I don’t care.  I want what the scumbag wants, and I’m not better than the scumbag unless there’s a gun to my head. Then we see adaptive preference.  If you have a gun and I can’t protect myself, then you win.  I’m not going to bother with the scream or the manipulative stuff.  I’m going to have a bad day then hopefully know whatever mistake I made for next time.  One of my biggest mistakes is not finding security.  We already know the FBI and CIA doesn’t do anything for me.  Post another picture, Putin.  I just want to see if I can make them feel guilty enough to make him say sorry and compensate me.  It’s not about the money.  It’s about hurting him.

I figured I'd spend some time explaining how they destroy you.  I am destroyed, so I'll get personal.

1.) One of their favorite tactics is racism. They pick anything that gives individual people a cause. Some people are racist, especially against those of us with Jewish ancestors.  Some of them make us look racist or exploit something in a different light.  It's something that you don't have to prove to stand up for, and it's something that "educated" people know, not us invalids or undesirables. A few years ago, I wasn't even discriminate, I hopped around everyone's eggshells and actually gave anyone that was different special privilege. However, they wrote down on my sheet that I "hated people with ugly colors." I was like? I never said that. But you will become everything they say. You get used to this. Later, after a lot of anger, I became discriminate, I believe, which is more or less like a cough you get over. I get really angry. And what makes you so special? I've been uber discriminated against this lifetime. Everytime I hear that bullshit start, I freak. Like my friend said, I'm mad. I also have Jew in me. Find a more hated race. Oh, they'll come at me for that.

2.) Sexual deviance. Ever wanted to make your habits public? I know we've got some closet freaks out there. I like Putin. <3 If it was 1976, you'd have to fight me off with a pole. Celebrity crush. I don't think Mrs. Putina has anything to worry about with me. I be an ugly one. Well, they're going to use any sexual thing against you, even if you're a virgin. I don't see why this is. If you have a problem, you have a problem and you need to deal with it. I'm not sure why our society doesn't have pedophiles openly confess and group together in like a cause-thing. Like, AA, so and so has a problem. My issues were a little different. I'm pretty sure that I'm a sadomasochist due to not having control. Humans submiss to dominance. You end up with self-defeating personality disorder to protect you. All those voices inside your head. I believe in God and things. Iz melted. At the end of the day, I'm just an animal. Now I'm sexually harassing Putin because I'm making unwanted advances. LOL Don't anyone want you but your wife now. Everyone else is just being nice. I'm declaring that I like you in1976. If that version wants to file, then go for it. I don't think that's possible. By the way, a ray with his name raped me. He advanced. hehe

3.) Finding a fault and using it to spin you around to the trash magnet. This is a game that they played growing up too. We all have a fault, and it can be used against a person in everyway. Whenever they start their games, I'm like, I have no redeeming qualities. It'll start out with that I have messy hair and it'll end that I'm Satan's offspring. There's nothing I can do about it but frame myself as having this or that fault. Give them what they want because they outnumber you.

4.) Rumors. They'll say that they have authority somehow and that you're this or that. I was a "whore." I'm used to that one because I 'm a low caste female. Whenever they come at me with that, I call them a whore. They have sex after all. I don't. Whenever i try to do anything, I get framed trying to get with the dominant male, and i'm destroyed socially. We all have crushes. This one got me a few times because I liked a celebrity or something, and i was like, it's true! Nothing they say is true.

5.) Mental illness. She must be crazy. By this point in life, I know I'm insane, but that's not relevant to the discussion. Trying to psychoanalyze me is pointless. Trying to put me in my box. Try to understand me, and keep in mind that we're all children of God. Why do things really happen? I use that line as a joke because we're all delusional, crazy and messed up somehow.

6.) Lying. It's nice if you know what the dominant truth is. Most of us don't even get that advantage. THere is a difference between lying and being a liar, white lies and big deals. I would like to make this clear. There's a conflict of interests with the truth, and it's fucking complicated. Would you always tell the truth? Honestly? No, nobody does. And if they don't lie, they do something just they same, they get quiet. They asked you a question, didn't they? Answer it like i have to. I'm usually protecting something when I don't say or I'm confused. When there are so many lies about me, it's difficult for me to balance them all. There are schisms. My truth is irrelevant. This used to cause great frustration in me. It no longer does. BTW, there is no weapon greater than a man who's known to be honest, however. It makes his lie that much more potent.

7.) Confusion is delusion. Since they are invisible, I can't say for sure that they are doing anything. They will ultimately confuse me into blaming something false and destroy my credibility. The more I try to exist, the more I will reach out, and it will end in me looking uber delusional. I'll lash out and do all sorts of things in this process.

I often get confused between them and me because I often see a cause-effect thing going on, but I think there are solutions to my burdens. One, it's obvious that I need to be circumcised. Why they won't cut out the curse, I don't know. I cannot handle the privilege of sexual selection. Two, we need to bring back slavery and force all the undesirables into it so that they "don't get in on our good." There needs to be a holocaust to get rid of all the Jews. And we need to swear allegiance to the intelligence service that takes care of us, like I need someone on my side that benefits from me being alive, not "she'll never do anything for you." You got that right because you have control and you make the world. That's right; YOU'RE RIGHT!

With them, there's often a shift away from executive interests, or what we like to say, boxing trash.

Putin owes me. i don't care if we "don't get compensation." I want to be worth something, though I refuse to be human.

I hope the bitch dies in the brainwashing show, A Person of Interest.  It has a doctor that's been targeted by some criminal after she goes to a nightclub. What that means is that I'm targeting her, and it's good they caught me "before" I do something.  She thinks she's so special. It's me who's going to kill her, so then I have to give her extra respect and bow to her in life. No, fucking way. She charges too much and doesn't treat me. I don't owe her anything. She came in my environment, she becomes a part of it. She got eaten. If she couldn't PAY for her own security service then she doesn't DESERVE it. Otherwise, it messes up the equality that is necessary for civil society. yes, we're equal, even a doctor to a regular worker. If you had a myopic awareness, you would know why, but we aren't equal to oligarchs. This keeps our balance.

Nobody helped me against Putin. It's okay, I got that. I don't need your help, you worthless sacks of shit. Just make me look delusional. Aw, poor baby. And then after that treatment, what do I turn into? See, how i get screwed? I'm automatically a school shooting doctor killer homewrecker. Only if I do it.

 
Edit: It's been confirmed that they did not manage to destroy my submission process this time. While they hacked my account and "scared" me with a fake blog, "just a question," they didn't get to him first. That's right, bitches. While I didn't make it, this gives me hope. They do things like send things I don't say. My credibility has already been destroyed. I can't ever say I'm not lying or that I'm not in denial. I even get confused and then I'm like, but I shouldn't share that or I should protect myself. They're really good at what they do. I'll give them that. Here's the blog they created right after I made first contact this time http://532003.blogspot.com/

This is war.

Kaela: 1 Intelligence service: 999999999999

We celebrate small victories.

Only they would understand the quotes.

The Power

The man of the castle
Said he was strong like
The stones of the walls
He then held the might
Everything he says turns
From a word to right
He gobbles the gold
Heaven such a sight
Nothing can inspire
Except his dear light
We learned that day
All was a dark night

  This is the picture that Putin gave me.  Our intelligence service does nothing for me.  This should have never happened.  They put me at extreme risk because he is a person of influence, and his word means something. Didn't protect me then.  F you too, bastard or should I say after stockholm syndrome, sugar pie.  I need your help.  You know what i need.  No more doublespeak from you.  You meant this.  People only see what they want to, and this gave them a cause--heaven forbid. And it caused me harm.  Now fix what you did.

  It's difficult to call reality in a war with moving targets and predators.  Both of us are masked in the delusion of possibility in this jungle.  It could have been or it could not have been, like the wild, wild west.  There are many ways a perps can escape blame.  The predators could use a singular event or time to make anyone paranoid all of the time, which is one of their tricks among others.  Like some events being so terrible as to cause PTSD and other psychiatric issues that could later be diagnosed and used to discredit the individual.  I suffer from a disorder that leads me to be discredited, but it's also the reason why I was targeted, I believe: money from an undesirable.

  Has anyone found a way of perceiving who is real and who is fake or managed to pin down their attackers?

  It's not like the idea is a delusion.

  Our country has a dark past of targeting people, so it's common knowledge that it is possible.  Programs like CONINTEL-PRO left a shady legacy and have inspired general distrust.  This distrust causes wayward paranoia.  With all this confusion, I guess the question is how do we pin them down and call them out?

    I want my brain back.  I am a zombie, "Living Dead Girl."

  On a random note, I'm done with freedom.  I want to move on to spine bending worship.  I like how Kim Jong uses his words to create his civilization.  What do they want?  Let's just give it to them.  Miss Rose doesn't like guessing.

  She'd pissed someone off, someone that mattered.  The poor girl lay vulnerable in her dark room, vulnerable to the incoming threat that stood right outside her window.  She was clothed in a simple gown and meek slumber.  As she rested defenseless the man came closer with cyanide.  He put it into the room in front of her blind eyes.  She was, after all, just a worker, nobody that mattered: nobody.  The world would turn another day without her there.  The sun rises, the stars pass, the clouds drift all by their will without care to the world below.

  As the vapor filled the room, the girl woke up to the horrific smell of something like burnt nuts or oiled hair care products.  She panicked as she was commanded to breathe in the poison.  Her body tugged against the weak air that sentenced her to bend like a reed in the wind.  Her heart thumped in her chest like an out of control machine then stopped.

  The man ran away, fearing the corpse aftertaste of death.  You could almost feel that hollow expression.  Nothing anyone wants to live with, even the experienced.

  Voices then entered the room with the girl that lay paralyzed.

  "Let us send the fallen after her," a voice said.

  The room smelled like burnt blood and rot.

  "Turn around and let me see the face that I created!" A hissing voice shrieked out.

 "But I want to be good!" I said back. 

   I woke up the next day with a headache from Hell.

This is all a satellite.  They've got us locked in games, and they're using common gangs to target us since it's cheap labor.  Then they use their fancy weapons on us.  I get confused between reality and fiction, just what they want.  What about you guys?

I'm suing Beck for his song titled "Novacane."  [novacaine]  It's an electrical harassment weapon that was pointed at me using some form of cyanide.

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gprLXOZPNg4

If I knew the rules, I could follow them and have hope, but you stole my success.  Now I want to dent you.

I would also like a settlement from Putin for making me a target in the first place.  Why was he entitled to direct harm my way?  Does he know me?