now as you know, I insulted Putin and he posted me a picture of me dying then our intelligence service chased me around for months (because Putin probably funds us) until they could justify "novacaining" me.  It sounds like schizophrenia, but I'm lucid.  Any "real" doctor could tell you that.  I need a lawyer because I need money to repair.  This is my real name.

These are my symptoms:

loss of linear thought, like an awareness of myself

amnesia

loss of awareness, which is horrific.  I'll be in the street and not know anything but sight and sound

nausea

difficulty dreaming

seizures in my sleep

inability to feel love

inability to express emotions

difficulty comprehending the world around me, which is going to get me in an institution

burning headaches

I get myself checked for other problems all of the time just to rule out and prevent further abuse. 

I'd like to start off by saying that I've been hit by heavy SRAs, so I might be a little confusing.  If you need help understanding a concept, ask me to go more indepth, please.

These are the things I've learned from my torture, and they seem to be the rules that those that govern us live by.  How do the subjects make you feel?  How do you think you'd be manipulated?

1.) Value.  Do you place your value on being a good person and upholding certain values, or do you place your worth on monetary things that grant you security?  Which one is wiser?  There are two golden rules; one is gold and one is do onto others as you'd have them do onto you.

2.) Sexuality.  What do you think makes a good person sexually?  Do you think our animal cravings can be judged?  Do you believe that human sexuality and human morality should be mixed or that they are mutually exclusive?  Do you feel embarrassed about having sex?  Does it make you edgy or onguard, or do you simply ignore the subject?  If someone was to defame you sexually, how would you react? 

3.) Awareness. Do you have some inner feeling that you've been wronged somehow?  Is it possible to be wronged if everyone is the protagonist of their own reality in the game of survival? 

It's a well-known fact that the CIA, FBI and other security services use what we produce to judge us.  I often question the motivation of people as well as their theories about the state of another person.  It's normal human curiosity and perhaps perverseness to want to know and control the feelings of others, but how can one be sure that one is correct? What are they looking for?  And what do they want to control?  What are your thoughts and feelings about what you produce?  Do you censor, or do you just let it all hang out?

If you haven't seen Putin's daughters then you haven't seen the horror.  Sure, us ordinary folk are ordinary but with as many resources as Putin has managed to secure, it's amazing that his offspring look like garbage trash.  I can see why he's hidden them. The oldest has carelessly ratted hair and horrid facial features.  It's a good thing she was looking away from the camera. The younger looks like a cross between a rat and a mole.  She's not only overweight, but she's also ugly as sin, and she hasn't had a ray exhaust her to point she can't exercise, so no excuses.  To prevent her genes from entering the pool and contaminating the rest of us, that woman should be sterilized.

Why do I bring this up?  because that's how these people measure us and exploit us, and they are this abusive.

Go ahead, kill me because you can't handle anything like the rest of them.

You know I'm just trying to get your help as usual.  Kim Jong might be a luckier shot.  I truly honor him for simply killing them. 

 Novacane" by Beck https://www.youtube.com/embed/gprLXOZPNg4"

Keep on talking like a novacane hurricane
Low static on the poor man's short-wave
Stampede's got to dismantle
Code-red: what's your handle
Mission incredible undercover convoy
Full-tilt chromosome cowboy
X-ray search and destroy
Smoke stack black top novacane boy
Got so low your mom won't drum
Getting late with the suicide beat
Test-tube, still-born and dazed
Chump scum plays in the razor's haze
Got the momentum radioactive
Lowdown!
Circumcised for the operation
Don't expect some generation
Cyanide ride down the turnpike
Hundred hours on the miracle mic
Grinding the gears eighteen wheels
Rigs and robots riding on their heels
Fine tune robot making a sand box(?)
Heats and infernos burning like drano(?)
Down the horizon purple gasses
Semi-trucks hauling them asses
Novacane, hit the road expressway
Explode!
Novacane! Novacane!

It's my body, I'll destroy it if I want to.  It's a crappy life.

This is Lisa Gerrard's "Sleep."  She moves your muscles to prevent cutting them then cuts all your cognitive function.  It's extremely painful.  Probably more painful than my memories. src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/AHwHVTlOQMk" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>

This is Placebo's "Bitterend."  https://www.youtube.com/embed/e_Ldgz1UJVs"

Since we're feeling so anesthetised
In our comfort zone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home

We're running out of alibi's
On the second of May
Reminds me of the summer time
On this winter day

See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end

Every step we take that's synchronized
Every broken bone
Reminds me of the second time
That I followed you home

You shower me with lullabies
As you're walking away
Reminds me that it's killing time
On this fateful day

See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end
See you at the bitter end

From the time we intercepted
Feels a lot like suicide
Slow and sad, grown inside us
Arouse and see you're mine
(See you at the bitter end)

Love has seen your run-around
Who wanna seek you now?
I want a peace
I'd whine out
(See you at the bitter end)

Love's reached his side
Grab this gentleness inside
Heard a cry
Six feet down
In six weeks' time
The mess you left
Will end
See you at the bitter end

Way to betray us, bitch.  So she cheated.  It was her right. You and me baby ain't nothing but mammals.  You've been wronged.  No human is ever wronged. I can't stop laughing.  :P

  Remember back in HS when we all sat at our own tables and had a clique (<--that was the typo; it didn't save)?  That's kind'of what gang stalking is like.  They're in cliques and we're the geeks, dorks or rejects scattered out in lonely islands trying to evade the glances of shame or ridicule, trying to find some peace until at long last we could escape.

We thought it would end.

  We're back at our tables.  How long are we going to sit there?

 We're trapped on islands as the cliques dart around us in prestigeous boats and watch us cower behind cocoa nut trees of justification.  I mean, just like HS we can't do anything and we're losers by their measures.  It's queer that additional failures are mounted onto our already covered walls, and i'm sure we're merely distractions as people try to look good next to us or justify our conditions.   We have tried to rise above on several occasions and it's prevented.

Sure, once upon a time, some of us naive kids had hope that something would come through, but now we know better.  Now we know that we need each other because we won't ever be part of the living world, not their club whether that be the NWO, $cientology, the military industrial complex or experiments lingering on the back of the education industrial complex.  They've become clever in that if there are several of them and no hard evidence, it's innocent until proven guilty.  Well, they're guilty in our eyes and it's been proven.

We only matter to ourselves.

How long are we going to sit there as the injustice mounts?  We're letting this happen to ourselves by not abandoning ship.  Do we think it's going to get better?

They don't want us; we don't want them.

  Life isn't like a movie.  There isn't some event of realization where some secret talent is found and life's problems wane away.  Anyone won the lotto?   All of our good qualities are destroyed or mocked, and we're chronically isolated away from the guidance that normal people receive as they deprive us of societal qualities thus causing normal contacts to abandon us or exploit the psychiatric labels they pin on us.  We become burdens or social outcasts where no one will help us (or provide useful help), and we almost deserve our fates; we desperately lash out and try to grab hold of something as the icy depths of the ocean pull us back down.

Life is hard for everyone.  Nobody needs the extra burden of harassment or tricks.

 We can't follow their rules because we don't know their rules, and we aren't allowed to be good anyway because whatever is happening to us has to be our fault.  

  I say that us victims of gang stalking and electronic harassment ban together and create our own club and perhaps move to India so that we're all safe in a semi-community. Sure, we're on our lonely islands now, but if we get together, we can escape the labels and agony and live full productive lives free from our psychopathic harassment.

  Going strong from kindergarten on.

 And yes, it's always the same people.

    I would like to start this post by saying that i'm often taken out of context or to extremes.   It's normal since we can't be exact in agreement.  It's okay to agree to disagree.

   I wish that governments and perps would be more clear about their intents.  Oftentimes, we've offended someone with power, and they wish to destroy us due to some inner ego problem, probably developed in childhood or something.  I'm not going to go indepth into the psychology of these individuals that somehow feel that they are more important than another's feelings.  It's our right as human beings to not like someone.  It is not our right destroy someone for simply expressing a dislike.  In short, we all hate someone or something, and we secretly wish them ill.  That doesn't mean that we do them ill.  We can directly and fairly confront them about this, or we can be sneaky and corrupt about it.

  If you have a problem with someone, tell them directly.  Have some couth.

I figured I'd spend some time explaining how they destroy you.  I am destroyed, so I'll get personal.

1.) One of their favorite tactics is racism. They pick anything that gives individual people a cause. Some people are racist, especially against those of us with Jewish ancestors.  Some of them make us look racist or exploit something in a different light.  It's something that you don't have to prove to stand up for, and it's something that "educated" people know, not us invalids or undesirables. A few years ago, I wasn't even discriminate, I hopped around everyone's eggshells and actually gave anyone that was different special privilege. However, they wrote down on my sheet that I "hated people with ugly colors." I was like? I never said that. But you will become everything they say. You get used to this. Later, after a lot of anger, I became discriminate, I believe, which is more or less like a cough you get over. I get really angry. And what makes you so special? I've been uber discriminated against this lifetime. Everytime I hear that bullshit start, I freak. Like my friend said, I'm mad. I also have Jew in me. Find a more hated race. Oh, they'll come at me for that.

2.) Sexual deviance. Ever wanted to make your habits public? I know we've got some closet freaks out there. I like Putin. <3 If it was 1976, you'd have to fight me off with a pole. Celebrity crush. I don't think Mrs. Putina has anything to worry about with me. I be an ugly one. Well, they're going to use any sexual thing against you, even if you're a virgin. I don't see why this is. If you have a problem, you have a problem and you need to deal with it. I'm not sure why our society doesn't have pedophiles openly confess and group together in like a cause-thing. Like, AA, so and so has a problem. My issues were a little different. I'm pretty sure that I'm a sadomasochist due to not having control. Humans submiss to dominance. You end up with self-defeating personality disorder to protect you. All those voices inside your head. I believe in God and things. Iz melted. At the end of the day, I'm just an animal. Now I'm sexually harassing Putin because I'm making unwanted advances. LOL Don't anyone want you but your wife now. Everyone else is just being nice. I'm declaring that I like you in1976. If that version wants to file, then go for it. I don't think that's possible. By the way, a ray with his name raped me. He advanced. hehe

3.) Finding a fault and using it to spin you around to the trash magnet. This is a game that they played growing up too. We all have a fault, and it can be used against a person in everyway. Whenever they start their games, I'm like, I have no redeeming qualities. It'll start out with that I have messy hair and it'll end that I'm Satan's offspring. There's nothing I can do about it but frame myself as having this or that fault. Give them what they want because they outnumber you.

4.) Rumors. They'll say that they have authority somehow and that you're this or that. I was a "whore." I'm used to that one because I 'm a low caste female. Whenever they come at me with that, I call them a whore. They have sex after all. I don't. Whenever i try to do anything, I get framed trying to get with the dominant male, and i'm destroyed socially. We all have crushes. This one got me a few times because I liked a celebrity or something, and i was like, it's true! Nothing they say is true.

5.) Mental illness. She must be crazy. By this point in life, I know I'm insane, but that's not relevant to the discussion. Trying to psychoanalyze me is pointless. Trying to put me in my box. Try to understand me, and keep in mind that we're all children of God. Why do things really happen? I use that line as a joke because we're all delusional, crazy and messed up somehow.

6.) Lying. It's nice if you know what the dominant truth is. Most of us don't even get that advantage. THere is a difference between lying and being a liar, white lies and big deals. I would like to make this clear. There's a conflict of interests with the truth, and it's fucking complicated. Would you always tell the truth? Honestly? No, nobody does. And if they don't lie, they do something just they same, they get quiet. They asked you a question, didn't they? Answer it like i have to. I'm usually protecting something when I don't say or I'm confused. When there are so many lies about me, it's difficult for me to balance them all. There are schisms. My truth is irrelevant. This used to cause great frustration in me. It no longer does. BTW, there is no weapon greater than a man who's known to be honest, however. It makes his lie that much more potent.

7.) Confusion is delusion. Since they are invisible, I can't say for sure that they are doing anything. They will ultimately confuse me into blaming something false and destroy my credibility. The more I try to exist, the more I will reach out, and it will end in me looking uber delusional. I'll lash out and do all sorts of things in this process.

I often get confused between them and me because I often see a cause-effect thing going on, but I think there are solutions to my burdens. One, it's obvious that I need to be circumcised. Why they won't cut out the curse, I don't know. I cannot handle the privilege of sexual selection. Two, we need to bring back slavery and force all the undesirables into it so that they "don't get in on our good." There needs to be a holocaust to get rid of all the Jews. And we need to swear allegiance to the intelligence service that takes care of us, like I need someone on my side that benefits from me being alive, not "she'll never do anything for you." You got that right because you have control and you make the world. That's right; YOU'RE RIGHT!

With them, there's often a shift away from executive interests, or what we like to say, boxing trash.

Putin owes me. i don't care if we "don't get compensation." I want to be worth something, though I refuse to be human.

I hope the bitch dies in the brainwashing show, A Person of Interest.  It has a doctor that's been targeted by some criminal after she goes to a nightclub. What that means is that I'm targeting her, and it's good they caught me "before" I do something.  She thinks she's so special. It's me who's going to kill her, so then I have to give her extra respect and bow to her in life. No, fucking way. She charges too much and doesn't treat me. I don't owe her anything. She came in my environment, she becomes a part of it. She got eaten. If she couldn't PAY for her own security service then she doesn't DESERVE it. Otherwise, it messes up the equality that is necessary for civil society. yes, we're equal, even a doctor to a regular worker. If you had a myopic awareness, you would know why, but we aren't equal to oligarchs. This keeps our balance.

Nobody helped me against Putin. It's okay, I got that. I don't need your help, you worthless sacks of shit. Just make me look delusional. Aw, poor baby. And then after that treatment, what do I turn into? See, how i get screwed? I'm automatically a school shooting doctor killer homewrecker. Only if I do it.

 
Edit: It's been confirmed that they did not manage to destroy my submission process this time. While they hacked my account and "scared" me with a fake blog, "just a question," they didn't get to him first. That's right, bitches. While I didn't make it, this gives me hope. They do things like send things I don't say. My credibility has already been destroyed. I can't ever say I'm not lying or that I'm not in denial. I even get confused and then I'm like, but I shouldn't share that or I should protect myself. They're really good at what they do. I'll give them that. Here's the blog they created right after I made first contact this time http://532003.blogspot.com/

This is war.

Kaela: 1 Intelligence service: 999999999999

We celebrate small victories.

Only they would understand the quotes.

The Power

The man of the castle
Said he was strong like
The stones of the walls
He then held the might
Everything he says turns
From a word to right
He gobbles the gold
Heaven such a sight