My feelings back now , I feel I less understand from world and my experience tell me what I have only hurt by life , I lose enjoy life , I dream my world change into much better than before , but many times I lose my emotion and I lose love and care from life  , I follow by perps who often say bad words to me , this  world seem to close good life  to me , mind weapon destroy my all life . I want to hear lots confident words to encourage my life , I want to find light  always be shine anyone in the world , but my life fall into troubles again .

Soleilmavis was born in china ,she set up peacepink to stop abuse and turture of mind control , she is our  model to against mind weapon  in  the world . I am proud of Soleilmavis  !

i have not stop mind weapon till now ,perps do not allow me to have peaceful life ，they follow me and talk with me every day ,they often abuse me :"got heart disease " or said "no one help you to get rid of mind weapon " . perps want to destroy my confidence again and again . i think over it why they often attack me ,one reason come from society ignore all victims voice ,they forgot what we suffer , lots of people never understand what is mind weapon , they laugh victim 's feel about mind weapon . why innocent person often hurt by worst perps ? very unfair ! i but perps never any punished by society . I appeal for formal organization to investigate who are perps .

 i have not stop mind weapon till now ,perps do not allow me to have peaceful  life ，they follow me and talk with me every day ,they often abuse me :"got heart disease " or said "no one help you to get rid of mind weapon " . perps want to destroy my confidence again and again .

i think over it why they often attack me ,one reason come from society ignore all victims voice ,they forgot what we suffer  , lots of people never understand what is  mind weapon , they laugh  victim 's feel  about mind weapon  .   why innocent person often hurt by worst perps ? very unfair ! i but perps never any punished  by society .

 I appeal for  formal  organization  to investigate who are perps .

i have not stop mind weapon till now ,perps do not allow me to have peaceful life ，they follow me and talk with me every day ,they often abuse me :"got heart disease " or said "no one help you to get rid of mind weapon " . perps want to destroy my confidence again and again .why they often attack me ,one reason come from society ignore all victims voice ,they forgot what we suffer , lots of people never understand what is mind weapon , they laugh victim 's feel about mind weapon . why innocent person often hurt by worst perps ? very unfair ! i but perps never any punished by society . I appeal for formal organization to investigate who are perps .

from PROVERBS 2   reminder  of all victim and all people in the world  to seek out  the answer  about mind weapon.

PROVERBS 2:3-4   and if you call out for insight  and cry aloud for understanding ,  and if you look for it as for silier and search for it as for hidden treasure .

PROVERBS 2:22   but the wick will be cut off from the land and the unfaithful will be torn from it  

from PROVERBS 2   reminder  of all victim and all people in the world  to seek out  the answer about mind weapon.

 PROVERBS 2:3-4   and if you call out for insight
                                  and cry aloud for understandin
                                 and if you look for it as for silver
                                 and search for it as for hidden treasure .

 PROVERBS 2:22   but the wick will be cut off from the land
                                 and the unfaithful will be torn from it 

perps still  talk with me and many times they want to  force me  said what they want hear words .i refuse talk with them then i hear perps said "we  hate  you and never give up you ".   i think over why perps attack me often ?  may one of reason come from society lose care victim life , they never mind what feel we must be suffer and ignore ours voice about mind weapon , so this way give the perps choice to attack me or attack  other victim  ,perps   never  any punish from society .i wonder why never anyone  exposure who were perps ,only very unluck story happe  in the world .

perps made the voice awaken from sleep and want to force me to said what they like  to said words ,this secret perps still around my life , let me me feel very terrible situation behide me .but why this dirty things can alive in the world?  i wonder  why lots unfair things  happe in the world and ignore by society .i feel  evil perps   luagh at me at darkness  ,but sunshine never coming with me . i worry the world future ...

i feel worst than ever this time , in my life i only  hear lots abuse words from mind control ,and what i love to hear words leave me aways ,my life lose care and since i got mind control . why God forgot sent angel to me , why  be a TI had to suffer lots trouble , why unfair thing not end ? only leave more tears and hurts  in the world .

God can dumbness keep
While Sin creeps grinning through His house of Time.　　　　　　　　                                           
                                                                    －－from Helen Keller

over thousand days, morning i wake up by mind cintrol attacks,the vioce seem to come from darkness,the vioce full of dirty and sexual attacks,  why they made this kind of trick for me ?  why?  maybe they want to  distorted my feelings ,made my sense not normal,maybe they want to hurt my heart,   let's me heart  pain.

every day i am under mind control attacks,i can not control my mind to recall the sadness i have in the past time.

after got mind control,always sadness, my mood  change a lot , i understand what was a blue day,  all kind of emotion comes, anxiety .nervous... , i  lose mind to read long story , not draw any picture,   i always think i was not myself when under mind control attacks.   first time under mind control attacks, i am afraid to  see any film at all,  because sadness things cause my tears,    i need more time to recover myself  and face the normal life again.

when i was in the  middle school , one day i study at  home, suddenly i hear the vioce,  i think the vioce come from  outside the window, i guess  someone talk each other ,  all the men vioce disturb my study,  and begun to find the vioce and see outside window, nobody outside, i was very surprise who were  they?  i asked my parents to find the vioce, i tolk to them : 'my classmate follow me ', but they could not find any person outside, they told me : 'you are wrong, no vioce,no people outside window,you got mental disease. ', my god ! i can not believe i was crazy, i never hear this words before, it is too terrible thing for me. i had to hosipatal visit and drop out from middle school, i was tear for a long time, at night i did not sleep at all, my tear made the pillow wet, i could not imagine what was my future like?  i look at sky to say my sadly words,  but no use , the vioce still attack to me, my headach very much,  i could not sleep well,  in order to sleep i must be take medicine  everyday......   from middle school , i still under mind control attack.    i know what is a blue day from i got mind cotrol, i did not know my unhappy life just began......