My sister in Calif. she's not sure she believes in God but she and her husband are going through some financial difficulty after a life of success. She is afraid they will lose some or all of what they worked so hard for. She commented about "the rapture"and that maybe its happened and we are all left here till the end of days(you know the ones that go to hell). I told her there is just a hex on the family a couple days before. I couldnt tell her the truth. I dont believe in reincarnation per se at least not as some form of purification of the soul for perfection. More as an option to return to earth to help another poor soul survive this existance. It sounds kind of negative but these are extraordinary times. I think Im one of the poor souls though who needed a reincarnated "friend" to get me through. Maybe Ive lost my vision and memory of all the friends that did come through and since my memory is compromised at the govt's will I am mostly now at this point in my life saddened by that. That I cannot see the good that comes through like its my most recent trauma after all the adapting to torture, loss, pain the worst may be loss of faith and memory of goodness. Its maybe the best coping tool and I have been stripped of .I dont have to read about goodness in the world because its still happening around me I just cannot feel it because the feeling is so short till its a memory then the memory stolen. Can you relate. I was watching PBS and there is this incredible 10 year old little girl who sings like and angel sort of opera and shes so amazing and she described the feeling she has when she sings, like this euphoric perfect place that takes over her body, ultimate joy, I have had those feelings before even from singing my favorite songs and from jogging and from laughing and from being in love and moments like that like when my daughter got married. For these feelings I guess I live for, for them to come again and sometimes I think one day it will be the last one and I may not realize it and you cant hold on to them. If only I could hold them inside of me like sadness. This is why I wonder that Im backwards. That there just may be people who feel those feelings alot, like all the time and Im not sure who they are because nobody talks about those things.I think if I werent a targeted person I could have been alot more so much more and so much less. Id have to take the child I was and start all over with no memory of pain, only the feeling of being loved and adored being special.Believeing in myself then that I was special. All these years it took to realize I didnt appreciate myself at all, it must be a learned behavior.Like Id swear some days Id say sure I like who I am but if i do would i respond differently, make different choices, I cant tell how I would know if i liked myself the way a PHD says your suppose to like what would those symptoms be? Identity crisis isnt what they do to us we are a 100 people at any given moment and never ourselves.So what happened to me?I wish I could be myself and see and be sure of my own thoughts, feelings,desires,choices that they arent being forcefed into my brain. Im sad for my loss of self mostly after everything else is gone. The world will miss me in the big picture something will never be complete.
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Dear Cinders,
Matthew 6:24"No one can serve two masters. Either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve both God and Money.
Even, the world we are living, most people called it Economics World (or Money world), We could not even live without money. But we could not only desire for money.
Victims who had been chosen by God to be soldiers to fight against followers of Satan and Beasts who used mind control weapons to torture and harass us, if we serve God, we follow God's way to expose such horrible crime to public and urge government to investigate such horrible crime and sentence torturers according to law, We will get help from God.
Revelation 13:7
It (beast ) was given power to wage war against God’s holy people and to conquer them. And it (beast) was given authority over every tribe, people, language and nation.
Mind Control weapons abusers and torturers were followers of Beasts, even they won at first, they could make victims losing everything. But with the help of God, we will won.
Revelation 2:10 Do not be afraid of what you are about to suffer. I tell you, the devil will put some of you in prison to test you, and you will suffer persecution for ten days. Be faithful, even to the point of death, and I will give you the crown of life.