If you are considering a way out -- suicide is not an option, people who think that suicide is an escape are not thinking logically...once you die, (if there is no after life, which no one knows) you simply CANNOT think, if you cannot think, you cannot comprehend the fact that you are no longer being tortured...it is not an escape it is the opposite -- it is giving up.
You must know that whoever is doing this to you, will not only move on to another victim if you take your life, they will gladly do so. Think about it, was this more fun for your torturer at the beginning or now? The beginning is the best part for them...think about how happy and delighted they were when they first started torturing you...the person torturing me taunted me with "I can hear your thoughhtttssss" and was laughing maniacally and couldn't have been more delighted the first night he woke me up to the fact he had a window into my mind.
If they choose you at random to torture, what makes you think they would ever simply go back to living their "lives" without torturing someone 24/7? They would be delighted to see you go, and move on to another. Psychopaths of all kinds pride themselves on how many victims they get...shooters aim to claim the most lives, serial killers pride themselves on how many people they took, etc...these torturers are no different. I pride myself on telling my torturer that he picked the wrong person, and that his victim count will never grow.
I also kept track of the date this started and have a growing number of the days I have survived and LIVED through torture. I write it down and smile at the fact that I have made it this far...If you are ever having a bad day or a rough time, consider all that you have been through -- what is another few hrs or a day or a week? You have made it this far, and that is a fact. Trying to convince you that the times are too difficult is an illusion...and nothing more. Every day that my torturer spends with me is another day that he didn't get to HARM another human being and I am beyond proud of that. Be proud of yourself, be proud of your life.
I constantly remind him that my life isn't his to take...I am not going to be his trophy -- it will never happen. I AM MY PARENTS SON, MY SIBLINGS BROTHER, MY FRIENDS FRIEND. I am going to forever be that, not a cowards trophy....
NEVER GIVE UP
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I experienced suicide a little, when I heard the voices like "I need to kill myself", "its enough, I need to die" and similar thought that were like my thoughts.
Just take a breath. Breeeeath in and breath out, breath in and breath out, YES this is my own breaaath in and MY own breath out and now this is my own thoughts. Soon later you will hear this words and phrases not in your head, but from neighbors and other people in the street or/and in other place.
Be happy! More happy you can more control yourself just dont waste your time, remove or disable any possible microchips in your body ASAP.