As of 1973, I lived in piece in USA and never encountered any negative behavior towards myself and or my children for reason of being from the Middle East. In fact, was always treated with respect. However, subsequent to the 9-11 event, I noticed that I was being followed everywhere I went. As soon as I left my house, suddenly a car ( usually a white, Black, or gray pick up truck) would appear in front of my house , and follow me everywhere I went. In addition, a woman ( Mostly a black person) would follow me in to every establishment that I went. I tested this matter, as if I made a U turn, they made a quick U turn. If I suddenly went in and out of theatre, and or restaurant, a woman usually ran after me inside. I went to church, kneeled down and kissed the cross, suddenly a man or two would come and check the surrounding of where I was to see if Ileft something behind. Go to an Arcade with my kids, every m ove I made , they came and look at where I was sitting to see if I left something behind. On and On and On..... Used a public bathroom, immidietly a woman ran inside and dumpted the trash can to see if I made a drop of some kind !
In addition, back in 2005, during one of the classes I was attending, two students asked for a ride and while in my car started questioning me as to "the kind of a Muslim I was?" and that why did my kids went to a Catholic school, if I was a Muslim", or that I fit the profile of a Terrorist they had observed in Orange County ( A single woman with two kids). These matters left me sick, confused, and were hospitalized.
As a result, I went to the FBI offices, and reported these matters in writing, however, was told that due to the 9-11 event, this was a common thing for me to experience, and that there was nothing they could do assist me. Of course, I was hurt to hear this as I have been a good U.S. Citizen for over 30 years.
Nevertheless, the treatment continued to be so bad that I thought they might arrest and deport me out of the country, so because I could not locate my Citizen ship papers I went to the Immigration offices and obtained a copy of my papers, and thereafter, obtained a Passport, so could show it as proof that I was a Citizen and not an illegal immigrant.
All of this made me sick. However, it appears that the technique in which ( who ever it is) is using has changed. As they no longer rush after me to a Church or else where to check under my seat to see if I left a bomb there, but, now it appears that some how, someone, is using some form of "Energy/ pressure" directed at my head when I am driving, to make me disoriented and almost seems like this thing is attempting to control my thinking process.
This is so crazy, and do not even know how to explain it. some force changes the formation of the air in front of me while applying pressure to my head and attempt to control my thinking. e.g., says don't think this way is fake......I think about my children, it says " don't they are fake"...All of this has caused me to move several times during the past six years, lose all of my money, and live in constant fear. These tactics appear to be designed to be nearly impossible to prove, aimed to make me confused and disoriented.
Before as soon as I went to a Gas station, a woman would rush after me and start a fight or just look at me...or ask where I was from....Now, a woman runs after me and copies whatever it is that I do...If I buy donuts, it buys donuts....If I am at the gym with a green towel, it goes to a stall next to me carrying the same green towel! .........They put a man next to me that smells like how a middle easter man smoking cigarette would, and then look at me and say that they are fake and that they hate them.
I am good woman, a good mother, and highly educated. Thus, do not know why have been a target in this manner. I come from a good family, and in fact, my own relative died in on one of the planes involved in the 9-11 incident. So, am not a terrorist, nor have I ever been involved in any form of activity that would cause such a reaction. I don’t' know what to say, but, because the FBI said that due to the fact that I was middle easter, I should expect to be treated in this manner.
The pressure that is placed on my head prevents me from thinking and as though can something see what I see and wants to change my way of thinking and or tell me what to do ......At times, when I think something ( It clicks once for yes, and two for no!) or has someone cough "one for yes, and two for no!" ... Also, strangers stair at me and copy my behavior....
What scares me the most, is that it appears to be an attempt to change the way I think or love, or behave. Specially, geared towards enforcing the though that my family is fake .....It knows of the most intimate moments of my life ( Sexual acts) and some how communicates it with me and makes me feel bad about myself...
Its crazy....Had I not by some chance read similar things on your web cite, I would not have had a clue that this things source could be some form of secret agency ?????Don't know...I have never had anyone read my mind and attempt to communicate with me.... It feels as though I have been placed in an invisible bubble where my thoughts are being monitored and there is an attempt to control my acts , thoughts, and emotions. As though been placed in an invisible prison.
I have moved six times over the past six years, from city to city, just to see if I am followed...And it does.....I don't know what to do...I put ear plugs into my ear when driving and or cover my eyes just so to endure this heavy pressure its placed on my head. Almost afraid of thinking, as soon as I do, there is an intereference with my thought pattern and or prevention of my thiking ....Or, if not, I get so scared that freeze and or become zomby like...
As though, something is trying to destroy me in silence without leaving a trace ......If any of these makes sense to anyone and don't think that I am making it up, please share your thoughts with me ......
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