I just wanted to post about the logic or mind of the people torturing us. They have absolutely no rhyme or reason to their minds, they are lost in this game of torture. All they care about is themselves...They literally tried to trade another persons life for their own enjoyment -- they are crawling out of their minds trying to escape the person that they are and the life that they created. They are running from their problem that is themselves. They will never be able to escape it. They are more lost than anyone on the planet...They couldn't figure themselves out so rather than growing and becoming a better person over time, they took the easy route and became the WORST/ most evil excuses for human beings on earth.
They are monsters, plain and simple. I often think about how or why they did what they did. There is no other conclusion rather than they are simply the most selfish beings on the planet. I know that my perp would trade his own friends/ families lives in a heartbeat for MINUTES more of this torture.
The most honest/ brutal thing I ever tell my perp is that he has to be himself FOREVER. That is literally the deepest truth I can tell him: He has to live his life being a monster for all eternity.
There is no coming back from this for them. They convinced themselves that another person losing was them winning and that is indescribably sad/ pathetic. Another person feeling pain was what made them feel better, because they know deep down the pain of failing at life.
If you knew what it felt like to hurt, why would you want another person to hurt?
While the perps may think that they found the solution to their lives, and this game of torture makes them feel better, ultimately they have no real happiness. They will never be satisfied, and will ultimately die knowing that they failed at life. I regularly tell my perp that while I would never root for someone to fail at life, it doesn't bring my enjoyment that he failed. I wouldn't have chosen this for anyone, I wish that people like him didn't exist...but it is simply what he earned.
They are trying to ruin your/ my life. I use this as fuel, I become a better and better person and appreciate more and more, and continue to grow. Rather than using this an excuse, I use it as MOTIVATION to be more.
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