I have learned many good ways to cope with this torture. Your torturer wants to be miserable, wants to stay inside, wants you to crave sleep, wants you to eat poorly, not work out, etc...DO THE OPPOSITE, open your blinds once you wake up, eat healthy, get some exercise, drink lots of water...do everything that has literally been proven to encourage and promote happiness. They are feeding to your subconscious to eat garbage, do nothing, etc...FIGHT IT.
They want to push you from your family and friends. BRING THEM CLOSER. I tell my friends and family that it is an honor to live at their sides, that I will forever be grateful for them reaching out trying to help me...Tell the people you LOVE, appreciate everything -- while they may to create the illusion that you don't have anything...YOU DO. You have your soul, and that is forever -- long after they are gone, your voice is going to live on. DO NOT EVER GIVE IN TO THEM. Think about how thankful you would be to someone never surrendering to cowards like them.
Another thing that I did not realize for a very long time was that these torturers PLANT THOUGHTS. They will plant thoughts and make you think that you actually thought them. A good test, is when, if ever, your torturer gives you silence -- consider what you are thinking...if it is really negative -- IT IS LIKELY THEM. I actually have a really good time with this and laugh at them, when I am doing something and they plant a thought, I respond by telling them that they are going to have to try harder than that and I know I would've never thought that...unlike them, my mind/ world doesn't revolve around negativity. I also plant thoughts for them, one of the main ways they aim to drive you crazy is to never respond to what you say, my torturer NEVER responds to anything I say to him anymore, it is just constant babble. I simply have a conversation with myself, and plant his thoughts, which he doesn't like very much. Odd, he likes doing something to me that he doesn't like done to him -- sounds familiar. Apparently people wouldn't like to be tortured themselves, but like torturing others...PATHETIC
Example: I plant for him "I am a torturer who failed at life" over and over throughout the day. There is nothing he can say to that, EVER...that is a reality that he will never overcome.
They like spying, stalking, torturing you...I often laugh at them because I work in an office, and constantly remind him that this is what his "life" is reduced to...listening to a persons thoughts as they put numbers in a spreadsheet? REALLY, Thats the best he could do in life? How is that even possible to fail that miserably?
Also, they want silence -- it is easier for them to torture you if there isn't background noise. I never give him that -- I listen to talk radio before bed and in the morning...Listening to music is helpful, but if it is songs that you know it is not as distracting as listening to someone speak words you can't predict (which is exactly why this torture works)...I MAKE HIM WORK FOR THIS
He won't get my responses easily, he has to fight over movies, radio, TV, music, anything but SILENCE because if he wants this, he's going to have to work for it. I would rather listen to a radio host talk then a torturer rant...
I told myself for a long time that I would be happy when this ended, that I would really LIVE when this stopped, that I would do things like get in shape, and eat right and so on etc...when this stopped and then it hit me. THIS MIGHT NOT STOP FOR A VERY LONG TIME...LIVE WITH IT.
Once you come to grips with that, your mind will be at ease. I won't put my happiness or my life on hold for anyone or anything...LIVE NOW -- YOU, like them are not promised tomorrow.
DO IT NOW.
Surround yourself with positive people, appreciate everything -- I think constantly about how FORTUNATE I am to be alive, healthy, young, etc...when you count what you do have rather than dwelling on the injustice being done to you, you will be much happier. Everyday, wake up and tell yourself today is going to be a good day...its a great starting point.
Do not let yourself think, "life would've been great if that didn't happen to me." People overcome terrible circumstances all over the world, day after day. You are no exception. You are only as strong as you allow yourself to be. Have enough respect for yourself to LIVE.
DONT EVER FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF -- YOU ARE SO MUCH STRONGER THAN THAT.
If anyone needs help throughout the day, or would simply like to talk send me a message and I will include my phone #.
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