So, for the last year they have blocked my sleep till very late caused vey heavy dreams, usually grotesque sometimes with people disfigured and or dying, kept me extemeley anxious, with many people in my mind coughing as they go by or sniffing, at night when I finally get tired as soon as a hint of tired hits I hear like a bucket being hit.
They always wake me up to early, so every day I feel very heavy and groggy than hit me with the nerves and voices telling me they wont let me have any relief till I'm dead,,
Never let me feel even a slight bit of coffee, and if I want a drink to calm the nerves they take that too...even writing this I hear people laughing perfecty timed out...the feeling of not being alone plus the nerves plus the tired make the thoughts guarded and paranoid of what they think so they get into a worse case scenario related to strangers where an image often graphic in nature will popp into mind..these get parylizing..and anxiety producing.
Even bringing my mom to chemo today, there's banging beside or above where I am like at night..
Cars will always be driving in the shoulder all around me, sometimes some will drive close to the yellow line, but it'll mostly be either, its like thier communicating with me that way, when they get me they'll drive close to the yellow or harass or let me know they dissaprove by being in the shoulder.
It seems almost every car does this no matter where I go..so it seems many people are in my mind..
It's very evident..thinking of getting a dash cam...does this happen to anyone else..?
Anyway itd be nice to see what's going on with others...what they do and say or want you to believe..
Have a stalk free day
B.
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