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Second Place

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 9:05am
Second Place is top of the line.
Everything is in its proper place according to a long tradition.
The organization is so good that even those who tried to play a trick on you would
hesitate in doing so. So well organized it was that the bad guys would have never
figured out a strategy to destroy completely effective. They made some attempts though.
It was not until we moved to the second location in the second place that they could
materialize their intentions. Second location was not that good.
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Third Hospital

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 9:00am

Where electronic devices were used that accelerated my cardiac rhythm and I was subjected to different kind of hostilities by some members of the hospital. Including making comments to induce me to believe that I was HIV positive. It seems to be that it was part of a plan.  The patient that was at the same room as mine started to ask me to do some sort of sex stuff, apparently in coordination with other people from the groups that provoked me outside.

There were both patients and employees involved in what happened.

They were aware of my calls to other states and did things - very bad things - to let me know that "they knew". In certain aspects, I went out of the hospital worse than I entered it. If I were going to describe what happened with me at that moment is that, besides fear, I was paralyzed. Later the side effects of the pills contributed to increase the way that I felt, "very strange".


Some other people in the same hospital helped me to get better in what refers to other illness.  One of the doctors helped me to find out that I was not HIV positive. He detected what was going on in my mind - due to the atmosphere created since 2008 by a team of specialists that could track down every place I visited and made emphasis in creating that idea in me, with the cooperation of people inside of healthcare facilities and even people who were supposed to help me -  and asked me about what was going on, but I was afraid of telling what was going on with some employees. These employees had also reinforced the theme of me being HIV positive, they also described how I was going to be killed by criminals, it was becoming like a standard in certain groups of criminals to make reference to me. The way that they operated in the areas where I lived was assigning you a nickname and then they elaborated over it in their clips and songs, their fans got the message without a need to mention my real name. I realized about that when the people referred to me by a nickname repeatedly when I was in the street. That way they felt free to go on with the harassment. In the hospital happened the same.

When you denounce the harassment then they say that you are imagining it. And then it comes the classification of the person as schizophrenic. That way the harassers and criminals think that they can go on doing this kind of actions forever.

It was precisely at this moment that I started to research what was happening with me and if there were other people who had suffered similar situations. It was then when first I head of the TI's, and obviously, I realized that the techniques used over me corresponded to what happened to other people. And more.

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Second Hospital

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 9:00am

Here is where there was a simulation - I want to believe a simulation - of shooting at a hospital. With a lot of people of the personnel enjoying, and inclusive collaborating, with whatever was in this hospital that I had to call 911. Many things happened at this place. I spent almost 6 hours wandering about the external areas of the hospital in fear of going out. A lot of hate songs were played outside. The people with authority in the hospital ignored me. It was fear at its best.

One of the guys in charge of the shooting knew about my economic situation and said that they were going to exploit it. He knew where I had been working , many things about my life. Inside of a hospital where I had just go to get cured.

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Second Airport

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:59am
February 2008
This happens before reaching destination at Fl.
A man starts talking about me with any person he finds around me.
After such an event I center my attention in him, partially. But I would have forgotten the incident if I had not found the man in the bus
that I was taking to go to Miami Beach. Immediately the atmosphere in the bus started to change while listening the man talking about me.
There was a girl that I had helped to bring her suitcases on the bus - she was a foreigner. Curiously we went to the same destination. When
I offered to help her to take the things down her look was completely different from the one she had had in the beginning. The man's comment
had had a very negative effect. If it was a coincidence or not to find him in the bus I will never now. Apparently he went also to the hotel where
I was going to stay during the evening. A very negative atmosphere was perceived there , as soon as I arrived.
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P.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:58am
P. is not a time setter. I mean, not an original one. He just set the stages.
First time I met him there was not a bad impression, just a warning in my mind about him being different. Nowadays several articles have been written about how dangerous stereotypes like P.'s are, but I was not aware of that, just concentrated in my work , which I thought was enough. P. was going to convince me, later on, that it wasn't. P. was absolute.
So we meet the first time in an informal meeting, a one on one, and everything goes well.
Let's go to the second meeting, the one that really makes the difference. It was a very subtle, very subtle, and the same time, very powerful way of singling out a person and make a point of his views, so let us see what he did.
Here is P. with me and four more people, all of them but one knowing what he wants. He wants to send me a message. The end of the message is what spoils everything. If he had been subtle or direct it would have been better. But he chose humiliation and I could not accept it. He said that I would take a broom and sweep the floor if somebody said so. Our contract did not say anything in that direction, and I did not see myself any different than the rest of the others - in fact I was not different from some of them, but very similar, but he thought the other way.
From that moment on I made another note in my mind and I started to analyze "P". Not enough, as you will see later. At that moment I thought that P. was still a fair player, strange, but fair. In fact he was a different person. He was known by "his methods". I always wondered what the people meant by "methods". Weren't we working only in "technology"?
Later on I understood - maybe too late - that the concept of business for P. was much wider. In his world the human beings were puppets or less, and they had specific values that he assigned according to his special viewpoints of the life. Very special. Absent in his mind were concepts like 'mind your business', 'avoid the drama ...'. Oh no, he felt like one of the servants of the invisible chords that rule the world. Consequently the rests of the human beings, well, they were etceteras. Be careful P. is not the only one.
One important thing is to take into account this: " P. had power and he enjoyed using it. And he also found pleasure in distributing it to his followers for them to be able to do anything he wanted". This is not a comment, it is a statement.

How is that he considered "his business"?
Power abuse is part of history, and there are certain people ready to use their power against others that they consider inferior or weaker. It has happened at all times in history. And many times one of the last ones to understand the consequences of this kind of behavior are the victims. At the time that these events took place, several people passed by my side and commented , almost explicitly, that I could - and should - take some kind of action. I looked at them and thought that they were exaggerating. How would things be so terrible with respect to those people that they were mentioning. After all, weren't we coworkers?

But there were times that I really felt that something was going on in the wrong direction. Those were the times in which, implicitly, without even wanting it, I tried to establish a comparison between what acted on me and how happy I felt in New York. One of such moments took place when, all of the sudden, in one of the meetings at group level in which I saw P. with a baseball bat, warning people with veiled comments. Not so veiled that I were not asked, a little after his words, what I was gathering of his comments. So I gave a candid answer, too technical perhaps. The one who was asking wanted something more related to humankind perhaps. Something that allowed him to understand that I knew the kind of people I was dealing with it. But I was too happy at that time. I did not know well the people I was dealing with.

Despite all the kindness and good heart that I put in all what was happening, there were events going on that raised my alarm up to certain point. For example: "At working hours, before going to lunch and entering the car, the lights were on" - this was what one could consider an impossible event, given how secure was the place where the car was. But with the time, it has come to my mind that I can associate this kind of situation to the moments that, while living in Palm Beach, I entered the apartment and found sections of the room with the light on - despite having made sure they were off before living the premises.

Another unusual symptom of something going out of place was the pleasure that some of his associates found in letting know that they knew what was happening with me when I was out the job place. At least at lunch time and before arriving to the job. For example: One day I was running late and I was had a ticket at the highway. As soon as I arrived to the job place one of his friends let the rest of the people know that he knew about it.

It was always something that almost looked like "impossible" to me. Probably because the only thought of somebody committing some sort of invasion of privacy was an impossible event to me. It should be understood that I lived in places where those actions were out of the mind of the normal people. Later on, when one person started to make comments and act histrionically through the cubicles at lunch time, was the moment that I received some of the above mentioned warnings - like exhorting me to do something. When things went to an extreme point. I was practically forced to complain about it. That is when I went to O. and mentioned it almost at the same tone of voice that the person in charge of harassing me was using through the cubicles. So instead of stopping, now the events got a higher intensity at lunch time. A few weeks later, this person was sent to work in a project in another place. <strong>Temporarily</strong>. The word temporarily is important in this context.

But lets go back to P., I just wanted to make sure that you understood what was the meaning of "full authority" in his mind.

When was the first time that I heard that expression? When the meeting where I was asked about what I gathered from it took place. There was a special emphasis is his voice when he was talking.

Another important feature was his way to assign "rights". I came across with his curious expression about this when I was attending a meeting with a few members of the technical team. Referring to an exchange between T. and me, he said, "he told him which his rights were". And then he added something that for some reason I do not want to mention here. I thought to myself, is he trying to be funny? Does he really think that he has the power to assign "rights" over his subordinates in a technical matter? Is he dreaming of power ? Life was going to demonstrate me that he was really serious and that he thought that he had the right to do whatever he wanted with his subordinates. After all, "didn't he have 'connections'?". Didn't he know about "time setting"?.

And it is precisely at moments like this that I think of the second meeting with P., the one with selected people of other teams, and I try to find a reason why I think of that meeting so recursively. Perhaps because I tie what happened little after the meeting with what happened the rest of my life after that. Maybe because it was the first time that after getting together with a person something happened that let me think that perhaps I was not in the right place to be happy. Maybe because terrible things happened in my life as a result of the actions of the "time setters". One of the participants in the meeting had to do with the internet. He was supposed to be a specialist.

By the time that I was going this meeting there was an ambiguous thinking in my mind about who he thought he was. And who he really was. It looked to me like somebody really ambitious who had been given power. Was he a Scarpia? Had he read Doctorow? Did he believe in Turandot? Which was his favorite music? What was the use that he really associated with the Internet. What did he "really" know about "rights" and up to which point was ready to acknowledge or ignore that concept. Those thought were like in layers of my mind but, at the same time, I had to work. And at the same time, those were other times, when fear was something unknown to most of the people, when we trusted each other much more and when there were procedures set in place to avoid that somebody, whoever the somebody was, abused of his or her powers. They could attempt to do so anyways. Didn't them know how to time set? I should confess, that I should have kept it very simple. If somebody enters in your room when you are not there, raise your alert to the maximum, do not trust only in reports that you make and try to know about who did as if it were a matter of do or die. Because at the moment that something like this happens you are under attack, may be subtly at the moment that you perceive it. Certainly blunt when the attack develops.

But, curiously, I realize that the main responsible for what has happened is me. I should have taken P. seriously since the very beginning. There was no poetry in that man. And what is more important, he did not want any poetry associated with those who surrounded him. Was it hate the predominant feeling in his mind. I am not quite sure. But certainly the procedures that he followed were not very orthodox. When the people mentioned "his methods", there was a significant silence after these two words, something that let you thinking for a long time. What the heck were they trying to say? Again, my mistake, after listening to statements like this one should stay at home and think for at least three days - without leaving the room - then one would see like a little piece of ice on the sea, and that piece of ice would be the top of the iceberg. But you cannot think in those terms when you are happy, you like music and you think that knowing about Oracle and Microsoft is going to resolve everything in this world.

A little digression here. It was precisely my love for being efficient with products from Microsoft and Oracle what kept me apart of the realities associated with P.

Remember this, even though you could be happy in an environment where people who work with this products, there is a strong likelihood that at some point people like Pl. appear, they will be surrounded by elements who might not be so concern about technical issues.

If you find that kind of environment you only have two choices: Either leave the place immediately or divide your mind and time in two and dedicate part of your time to study how to deal with them. Otherwise you are an easy prey of the non-technical ones. Their values are different. And for them, remember, you are nothing but a competitor, somebody who can be substituted. Nothing else.

But let us review the hate issuers. Wasn't it one of his associates, T. the one who came to my workplace and let me know - and the cubicles around - that I was going to commit suicide? Oh, oh, those were serious statements. And should be carefully analyzed. At that moment I did not know how T. loved other kind of technology. It had nothing to do with client/server for business - that is what we were supposed to be doing together - though.

In the beginning, I must confess, I thought that I was dreaming - a bad nightmare - or that he was joking. Suicide?. I just had bought my synthesizer and was trying to get in touch with as many DJ's as possible to see how I promoted my music. I could not be happier. And I did it after working at the very least 10 hrs for the company. Wasn't it a good reason for everybody to be happy?. The guys that saw me going out of the company late in the evening looked serious and nice people. Everything had to be perfect.

No wonder , I was not so completely stupid, the statement was to be taken into account. I let some people - out and in the company - know about his comments. What the heck?, you do not have such an exchange everyday. In fact, some people have had a whole working life period without having such a comment made in front of them. In particular, I am the kind of person who thinks that if you say something is because you are thinking of it. So something inside of me, despite my inner happiness, said "be careful".

But well, this was T., not P. Why do I mention this here?

Well, because the power came from him, not from T., at least in that specific environment.
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M..

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:57am
No subtle intentions here either.
Throwing objects to a monkey is his favorite sport.
Did I meet him again in 2008, when applying for a job?
That would have been an extraordinary coincidence.
The one that you don't want to be happening
when you are so scarce in your money and you are about to be homeless.
Anyways, that was an out of the ordinary interview, 4 hours!!!.
And every interviewer going recurrently to the same subject of : "What would I do
if the coworkers started to act in such a way that it would bother me?
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M.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:56am
The first moment that I started to see something in M. was when he said "he likes to run". He said this 2 hrs after me arriving to the job place after receiving a ticket "in the highway". I was always, for years, curious about how he could have known so fast about that. Before this he was acting almost normal. Almost because there was a perception in me, that proof to be right, of his browsing through the cubicles at lunch time, without saying a word, when were were working at the great building.
Someone referred to him as the confident of T. and said that he monitored other employees. I have no doubt about that. When we were in the big building he used to appear at lunch time and look over the cubicles or watch "with discretion but watching" when you were visiting people in other areas. The word that they used was not confident; it was something stronger. Was he really allowed to that or was it something that, at that time, he thought he could with impunity?
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L.L.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:54am
Should have given me in information for a project.
Never did it. In three months. That is a lot of time for giving information without anybody noticing.
I did not act slow in his case. Knew - or imagined - what was going on but just wanted to avoid any
confrontation.
I should have figured out a solution though. It was too much time.
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K.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:53am
Apparently neutral, K. played a rol in interrupting normal communications in the network.

Given the tasks that he was developing in the team, he was responsible, somehow, for the permissions on libraries.

He thought that his actions could be covered, but both O. and me knew of the role he played.

In one occasion I mentioned this problem directly to C.G. and she, somehow, talked to him and the problem was fixed. Temporarily. All this at the second location.

The problem with me interacting with this guys is that I had already studied client/server before meeting them. Some of their actions were transparent to me due to my former experience in labs where the techniques that they were using had been practiced over and over again by people that attended classes. It was like seen students doing the same exercises - refusing privileges, blocking ip's, etc.

But at that time there was already more than that. I had some hints, only that I could not believe it.

They had already gone beyond certain limits in communications.

He was one of the favorites of T.
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Jo.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:52am
Even Jo seems to be non-important, he is one of the key elements of "what happened".
Because he was always around.
Usually one thinks that "the group" is composed of individuals belonging to the same social group. But that is not true.
Usually the components of the group can be of different social extraction.
And since he used to clean and do maintenance, apparently he was the idea person to be gossiping around without
being tied to a cubicle.
Although I always suspected him, it wasn't until recently that I realized that he could really have played a role in the events
around me. Thought of him as an isolated element.
He took my phone when I left it after playing a table tennis game and kept it for about 45 min before returning it to me.
He knew information about my interactions in the company that were far beyond his rank and commented about them openly
in the places where it could hurt me more.
And he threatened employees that were apparently above him , something that seemed to be "unreal", but was not.
I am amazed about my capability to ignore danger. How I minimized Jo in my mind is one of the best examples.
It is not difficult to imagine to whom Jo really reported to.
Jo appeared in my life when we moved to the second location. In the first one he would have ever been able to move as
freely as he needed. There were many different types of monitoring and those who handled him would have not been in control
of all of them.
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I.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:48am
Well, she enjoys enforcing T.

Her favorite phrase to introduce herself to the invisible and powerful inter-cubicle audience is "everybody knows". That is how she gets attention at lunch time. After that she develops the sketch, according to the instructions, of course of the time setters, she enjoys so much kissing a.. up and spitting down - at least in her mind - that she has no idea of OOP, because after all, is it necessary? I mean she knows them.

So when she offers me a big monitor for my computer I am confused. Is she good, bad, in the middle or what? I keep my pose, accept the offer and let the events go on. Should confess that in the beginning she looked normal.

But when developing the show she is transformed into another person. Never before I had seen such a marvelous double acting in a human being. She is hate at its best. No other expression could describe better the set of phrases that she uses. Above all when she grabs a phone and pretends to talk. She can spend ten minutes ruining your lunch with an inner satisfaction in her voice. Those who approve and promote her behavior should be happy. Those who do not like what she says remain in silence. A tense atmosphere is the result. Acceptance and tension. Is that what she wanted?

I enjoys being acknowledged and let others stories be known, she dislikes indifference, so she makes it clear to the ones who do not smile. But among us there are tough guys who do not smile. They know that everything we do in live brings about "consequences". And even though she has the upper hand, apparently, isn't it true that life is like a spinning wheel. So they concentrate in their jobs and do not laugh and that makes her crazy because she wants everybody to think exactly as she does.

Of course I. is a friend of A. and they share viewpoints. One particular day can reflect the depth of the consequences. It was a day in which we all perceived that something very, but very strange and significant was going on with I. somewhere. Here is the moment: “We are working, and I. can not do some sort of task because the data does not arrive timely - as it should - to her. Suddenly A. grabs a phone and calls and says : "You know something, it is me, it is me the problematic one, what is going on ..." . She usually never did this, above all in public. So everybody is left thinking what was the upsetting thing that had happened, somewhere, that had made some people block I. as if they did not like her. What had I. and her associates done to the other side? And above all, why was A. so passionate in defending her when she did not the same thing for other subordinates who were undergoing the same situation?

There are moments in life that are unforgettable. When she said that she would be careful not to let her children to play with any person of a specific color - reference, my color as she understood it - it created a significant silence in the intercubicle audience. It seems to be that even the most hardcore sympathizers understood that she had crossed some boundaries.

But she was undeterred, once she got started nothing could stop her. So there she was another day, saying that her husband was there washing her car for free, screaming it for the audience, this time pretending to talk on a phone - an open invitation to "resolve matters". Out of curiosity I went out at lunch time to see where the "washer" was. Later on I learned that this was one of the "techniques" used by some women in that place. This happened, of course, after we move to the "other" location and after the famous speech from P. where his favorites were going to have "full authority".
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Hotel 3

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:47am
The woman appeared again. I think it is the same person who was at hotel 1 and in the apartment.
She created a situation in the lobby of the hotel where she said that I pretended to know how to do the accounting in a hotel but I did not. The whole purpose of the scenario she created was to make me look as somebody who did not know what was doing.
This has been a repeated pattern in many of the places where I have tried to work from 2007 on. Reiterative efforts to make me look like a stupid and threats and intimidation to the people who are hearing. Like reminding them that if they don't agree they would rather remain in silence while witnessing what is going on.
In hotel 1 - always referring to the M. Beach area - she "or somebody with a voice similar to hers" - used to sit at the place that divided the two areas of the hotel and recruit as many people as possible to show them pictures and make comments about me, turning a lot of people against me.
Reinforcing all this I found always somebody pretending to talk on the phone in front of the door of the hotel or at the parking lot. Offensive comments while talking on the phone and always trying to get the attention of as many people as possible and turn them against me.
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Hate 3

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:46am
If rules are created that do not have taken into account the technological advances of the time
we live at. Then those rules are obsolete and are just taken advantage of by those who master the
devices.
The devices:
Anything that harasses or damages a human being. Anything built based on technologies that are not
explicitly deal with in international treaties.
The world is in danger.
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Hate 1

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:44am
I feel that I have been threatened too many times.
Too many death threats.
Too many people laughing at me in the street.
Too many people in official positions laughing at me and making judgements.
It is too much.
And it is very cruel.
I simply do not deserve what is happening to me.

In 2008 while trying to get a shelter at Bay Harbor. I experienced the
beginning of the cruel harassment. When I tried to get a shelter everybody
made fun of me with the asumption that I was a transexual. I was promissed
that I was going to be beaten up in the evening. Even the most insignificant
person thought that they had the right to insult and threatened me.
When I went to see the person who was in charge of the place I only saw a
cynical smile that reinforced everything that was happening around me.

Fron that moment on, the hate campaign developed.
With different degrees of intensity, depending on who did it. But omminpresent
everywhere I went.

There were different lies that they weaved in the mind of the people to obtain
this: That I was HIV positivie, that I was a transexual, that I had laughed at
my mother's death. Basically they managed to make believe the people that I was
a sort of a monster. When I tried to make complaints about this, they sent me to
the psychiatric. In the hospital, the ordeal continued. It seemed to be impossible
to see so many people working together. Only in the movies you found a reality like
this. But it was true. All this sent me to research what happened in the society
that had scaped my attention. What I found out was extremely serious.

It seems to be that different groups, in this society, have suffered similar
"treatments". It is called gang stalking. This comes together with what is called
electronic harassment.

Instead of giving a big explanation about what these two concepts are I will refer
you to two websites that describe in a very good way what these concepts mean.
These websites are: ganstalkingworld.com and wantoknow.info.


It is an accumulation of threats. And I lack resources to resolve the issues on my
favor. I am extremely tired. And very concerned about my safety. That is not a good
combination.

There isn't anything happening in what refers to my capacity. It is easy to track that,
despite whatever is happening in my life, I have been able to develop
client/serve applications in a way that corresponds to what I learned in happier times.

I very well know that I am a victim of a conspiracy. There are a lot of powerful people
involved in all this. My feeling is that they want to take a foreigner as an example of all
the punishment that they have in mind for people who do not do things the way they want.
I know that they have planned my death because it is constantly broadcasted by sonic techniques
whose existence they do not recognize. That is why I am a victim of a hate crime.

After putting me in a position in which practically any cooperation with me is going to be punished.
Since the very beginnig - they started to spread two things. That I do not know what I do and that
I am a lazy person.

In 2008-2009 my health went to a special situation. I was very weak, wandering about by the streets,
trying to find out what was happening with my life and the general rejection that I suffered.
Everywhere I went it was the same. I suffered a lot and lived under a tree for a long time.
People profiteered of my situation by singing hate songs in the clubs. When I went by the street in
the morning, I suffered the consequences of such songs. This went on for a lot of time. Those are
the conditions in which I was supposed to get a job. In the meantime a lot of people who suffered
similar kind of "bullying" committed suicide or were beaten to death
- a message was sent to them "It is getting better" . It is curious, I know that there is a good
intention in the message. But, how to make it effective if the ones that have to make the message
effective, more times than desired, are the ones who look the other way when this hate campaigns are
developed in front of their eyes.
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G.

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:43am
I have no doubt in my mind that G. is a mind setter - or very close to one.
The first time that you see him inspires confidence. The second time raises questions in your mind. The third time you start to wander about his motivations and why he deflects the attention of the audience to certain topics, like trying to cover things that have happened.
From then on your mind keeps wondering for ever what he has plotted and up to which point is going to impact your life.
The most significant moment was when he spoke, at a meeting, as if he had the right to monitor whoever he wanted, everywhere and using any method he wanted. At that moments many eyebrows were raised. For ever.
He like been sarcastic, too. Ocassionally and when surrounded by the proper crowd.
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Fourth Airport

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:41am
March 2008
While in the trip to this airport the person who was seating just in front of me in the next double seat turned towards me occasionally and said that I come to die in this state. This person - a woman - and other people, tried to make me as uncomfortable as possible. At some point the person that was seating besides me, a woman, started to feel uncomfortable with me. It was the beginning of a campaign of continuous harassment.
Here I am looked as a contaminated undesirable individual as soon as I arrived. With many stories running about - and against me. It was also the first place where electronic harassment was used against me. It is impossible to describe the negative effect that the voice to skull had on me. Also, hate songs were created to reinforce the attacks by specific part of the population who liked that specific music - very violent. The message was death. A video was also created. In the video I - or the person that was supposed to be me - was killed. Everybody was talking about that.
It is very difficult to describe the whole situation because it had unbelievably cruel episodes, one of the most dramatic ones was how they addressed my family and they run a story saying that my family was dead and that I did not like my mother. That story was precisely the one that had a terrible dual effect. In what refers to me it set me in disbelief for at least 3 months, trying to verify what was in fact happening with my family. In what refers to the people around me - they did not want to see me or talk with me at all. It was total rejection. I had never confronted a situation like this in my whole life. So I stayed motionless in the airport for at least a week, trying to find out the reason of all this. Obviously, I had never been a transexual in my whole life, so this seemed to be an intrigue created based on situations that, for being very scarce a unique in my life, I could spot very easily. Also I started to think who could have created the whole thing and everything pointed to the same people. I said started. Because I am sure that there were others that took the information from these starters and created something dangerous, based on lies, carefully designed. It is happening to other people now. But at that moment obviously, I thought that it was my only problem.
So I started to believe that there was a group of criminals who had been trying to destroy my life. I was not so wrong about that, but there was more.
According to my state of mind at that specific moment there was one only option, to run away from the people who had been threatening me at the hotel, the airport and more. So I ended up petrified, without options, at the airport corridors, with people harassing me and commenting about me everywhere. That created the biggest shock that I have experienced in my whole life. Those who were in charge of destroying me had ample powers, could find my location at any time and act accordingly. Apparently the plan was not to let me relax never. So I started to move from one place to another to avoid harassment, but the excitement and destructive comments about me were everywhere, a few days after this, my whole life was going to be changed. Powerful forces had been used against me and I was unable to descipher all the tactics and strategies used.
The first thing that I did was to go to the stairways of the train. I did not have too much money left. It was very, very cold. The wind hit me and from that moment on I think that I lost real contact with the world of comfortable people. The one that I had belonged to all of my life.
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First Place

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:40am
First Place is nice and clean.
The location is beautiful and the climate great.
The intensity of the job is good and you learn a lot.
But they have Ma.. and B.. and that makes a lot of difference.
Because they like throwing things to an animal at lunch time.
So we have to types of workers; the ones with no events around and the ones
"with events around".
I had events around me.
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First Hospital

Posted by JulVeg on September 21, 2011 at 8:37am
I was sent there after asking for help at a hotel near the airport. They called the police and the police took me to the hospital. There I was tested for drugs - urine examination. While waiting for the results of the test I was sent to psychiatrist who did some sort of examination. Then I heard the expression "Europe" several times. There was some sort of intention of associating me with a sexual behavior.
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