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My Symptoms

These are the symptoms that I had since all this started:

- Induced anger, calmness, affection, repulsion, hornyness, irritation, anxiety, fear, sadness, satisfaction, amusement, desperation

- Urges to kill

- Lack of control over my own body

- Psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, catatonia)

- Mania, derealization, depersonalization, changes in the way I percieve myself

- Illusions (visual, auditory)

- Panic attacks

- Manipulated hearing (hearing even the slightest sounds, echoed hearing, background noise seems louder than it actually is)

- Manipulated smelling (diminished smelling ability, every smell provokes nausea)

- Manipulated seeing (all colours seem brighter or duller than they actually are, ability to see everything that moves in sight at the same time)

- Induced physical pain and stinging, numbing and tingling of limbs

- Manipulated internal organs (heart, prostate, stomach)

- Talking brain, heart and brain tingling

Sometimes I also feel the urge to take off my pants while in public spaces haha.

I can expain why these symptoms have not occured in a natural manner, if anyone is doubting it.

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Physical health changes

Since gang stalking and mental torture began last year, I've been experiencing better heath.

I used to have high blood pressure, tachycardia, nosebleed, eye floaters, swollen and painful fingers during very cold days, dizziness during physical effort, numb limbs, and pains and stings all over the body (heart, liver, pancreas, stomach, kidneys, lungs, neck, head, bladder, testicles, penis and rectal pains). These have occured constantly in a 4 years period.

I also had a lot of panic attacks in 2009, but unlike the symptoms I have listed, the panic attacks were produced by hign anxiety levels, while during the other symptoms there was no anxiety involved. The panic attacks started one morning when upon waking up I felt my heart tingling (something that I feel on a daily basis now). That's why I'm inclined to believe that all these symptoms were the product of their manuvering.

As I was saying, since last year I've been experiencing better health (low blood pressure, normal heart rate, and all the other symptoms are gone). Also, I can't even remember when was the last time I caught a flu. But the most notable change is that my eyes are always wide open and I blink much less often now.

They do fake heart attacks from time to time, when I refuse to do what they want. (for example, one day last year I said that I would not return to the industrial farm I was working at, so they faked a heart attack to make me change my mind). So far they have faked about 4 or 5 heart attacks.

Has anyone else noticed physical/health changes since they began being stalked/tortured?

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Mind control (symptoms) log, updated frequently

email: cubicle227 at yahoo . ca (you can contact me any time for any reason)

This is a mind control (symptoms) log I will update frequently.

Here, I will try to post symptoms I am currently experiencing caused by the mind control, and related experiences. These are suspicions at the least, facts at best.

I hope to update this post about once every day or few days. I was inspired by Martti Koski who did something similar. Another victim who spoke to me by phone also recommended I write about it each day.

I lost a log I was keeping from a few weeks ago.

"They" usually means the people or beings who are secretly trying to enslave and robotize me.

For more information on how mind control has affected my life and how it began, you can read this blog post:

Sunday, August 10, 2014

They tell me to "remove internet posts about mind control, immediately/completely" through text that briefly appears or "flashes" in my vision.

(May be induced directly or as a learned reaction to thoughts about my posts, from past indoctrination)

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

They close my jaw onto harder foods so as to cause me pain when I eat, which makes me angry and want to use ketamine (teeth are sensitive from dental procedure).

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

They jolt my arms to cause painful collisions when I move close to objects.

They greatly reduced a feeling of joy when I was with a friend, by making my throat muscle "click" in a way I'm trained to react strongly to.

They made me stay in place when I was thinking of moving, by triggering a "drooling" hallucination that grounds me and blocks thoughts about how I will move away.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

They can force me to make simple sounds with my voice, but not full words.

Friday, August 15, 2014

Had a dream related to my hospital-induced trauma, in which parts seemed artificially induced in one way or another: a childish voice telling me "Some people will stay and some will die, but it doesn't matter because one day you'll be the only one left" (similar to what produced delusions about being forced to live forever and being alone on earth when they triggered my psychotic episode). Also, being mocked in the dream when realizing the skull I see (in real life) is related to the damage my psyche endured during one night in the hospital kitchen.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

As is usual, tiny burp-like "clicks" keep me thinking about drugs (and sometimes psychosis, trauma, etc.) in a crude, essentially unimportant way.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Especially this evening, They are using the tactile hallucinations I'm programmed to react to, to make me think in a more self-centered, subjective, uncreative way. While I wrote this, they symbolized my neck being cut. Every day, they irritate me (emotionally) when I decide to do something (i.e. drink some water). Through this, they are probably reducing my motivation to do things by will, and may be preparing me for another catatonic episode.

Monday, August 18, 2014

They directly made me say "hell" and "yeah/ya,"

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Through the tactile hallucinations they induce, they have been limiting my range of thought to here and now, inhibiting my ability to recall memories or think about things which are not directly present. And even then they try to stop the thoughts.


Wednesday, August 20, 2014

According to them, they work for the CSIS, and indicate they are telling me the truth. They also communicate that my amygdala is greatly damaged. My own mind can see the link between one of the nights in the sunnybrook hospital kitchen and (perhaps) permanent over-activation of my amygdala or part of my brain stem. It's a suspicion.

Thursday, August 21, 2014

They sometimes (only slight today) gradually oversensitize me to hums from machines, which they overload me with when I am vulnerable. Too much mechanical energy. This doesn`t happen much anymore.


Saturday, August 23, 2014

Constant suppression of thoughts as usual, resulting in uncreative and repetitive thoughts about drugs. Thinking creatively about a spiritual, psychedelic reality when I could gave me hope and made me more resistant to their itch torture.


Sunday+Monday, August 24+25, 2014

Constant thought suppression through mini burps and drooling hallucinations


Tuesday, August 26, 2014?

They use itch hallucinations across the Inside of my knees and elbows, which can make me think of bone-breaking. They also mimic a painless version of a needle going through my inner elbow.


Saturday, August 30, 2014

Itches on inner knee when I changed my position or felt comfortable during the night.

For months, I`ve noticed synchrony between my thoughts and actions, and people coughing or honking in their car. It may be used as a way to discourage such actions. This can sometimes be noticed in sitcoms, too.

More than a coincidence, I say.


Out of all the writing I did today, the one above is the only one I was discouraged from writing through throat-muscle clicks.


 Saturday, October 18, 2014

 Psychosis started. I used DXM instead of alcohol, and paid the price. Essentially all drugs seem to aid in my tendency to be programmed against my will, but this is partially because I don't use them when I desire, but rather during moments of anger or even panic.

It is essentially about being given knowledge by "aliens," having them force me to believe they were never here or that it is my own delusion, etc. By giving the universe an idea as to all of my desires, I may also have knowingly and wrongly informed it about myself.

Apparently this psychosis will be painful (as were the other two episodes) and I have tried to warn the universe of the severe consequences. It seems to have tried to warn me, too.

Love, Daniel. And hopefully, I will not be too much more of a robot after this.


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