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I just posted that I feel better tonight, after a night and day of depressed hell, and forgot to say that the Dew is on me again.  Or it could be that there's just so much electromagnetic interference in the house, and I've become so sensitive to it.  Anyway, peace and love and harmony to everyone.

Thank you everyone that commented on my last post.  I hate it when I get to feeling like that.  My niece brought over her little girls and that cheered me right up.  I know it's being done on purpose to manipulate my feelings and behaviors, but I don't care.  I love them all so much, they are really the darlings of my life right now. 

Namaste

Here is the 8/8/12 Gateway Portal Meditation of Waves of Bliss [copyright of Nasrin Safai]

http://www.nasrinsafai.com/media/audio/PortalSessions/force_download.php?file=120808portal.mp3

duration 28:54 :: Grounding + Grid Invocation + Meditation with Jim Foster

source page: http://www.nasrinsafai.com/groupchannel/

I hope you enjoy

Love-Love

x

Esta Lior

I'm just curious and want to know.

that is what they call it sharing what you see with other people but not just what you see but what you think letting the people around you watch your reaction when i worked at mountain home water and sewer dept in arkansas every one at the shop new about it they would my direct co workers moose,jason,ryan and project manager jeff whitehead this is a this is a municapality that works with city hall to install and maintain public water and sewer lines.they use this tech to organise and instruct employees in the field call it what you want microwave hearing v2k  when i went in for my interview with alma clark i was sitting in front of her when some force grabbed my head and turned  it i can only describe it as a kind of magnetic feel it felt like current was running through my head the force was so strong tht it made me grimace trying to fight for control while the whole time alma clark and jeff whitehead just stared i was shocked beyond words needless to say i got the job but it was pure torture even my brother in law lee whitman knows about it the things i suffered for these people to watch me think is the most inhuman thing anyone has ever experienced if was torture and death that would be one thing but they have kept the torture going for four years nonstop 24 hours a day they have to keep you tired with sleep depravation they use what they call attitude to modify your feelings so they can provoke you with there perverse chainsaw and steer your body and eyes the best they can if your at full health its to hard for them to control youive been fighting four years nonstopbecause of the equipment i now have high blood pressure that has been untreated so long that the lining of my heart has thickened its been 8 months since my last hospital visit the medicine they give you has no affect because the blood pressure is artificial i can only guess how bad it is by now when all they did when i got out of the hospital is turned up the intensity of the torture this is how they kill people and make it look like natural causes this is the proof that our government has full knowledge of this technoligy all of the names i have listed are real if you want to stop this torture and gain credibility for every victim this is where we start this is the phone number to mountain home alma clark director city hall  870 425 5115  get as many people to call as you can

I'm feeling rundown and overwhelmed.  I had a job interview and a callback for a second interview, was gaslighted during both of them.  Did you know that most salesmen/saleswomen are psychopaths?  Not the kind that go nuts and kill a bunch of people - they're the kind that have figured out how "normal" people act, and then use what they know to sell sell sell!  Anyway, I am feeling so hopeless.  Lots of talk on these sites but no real answers.  I'm facing the fact that I'll have to "admit" that I'm delusional about the electronic attacks and gang stalking, and that I need to be on meds (not one person believes me, at least any person that would make any difference in my situation).  I know I will never be allowed to obtain a job that allows me any independence away from my brothers house.  The best I would be able to get would be a minimum wage job.  So I'm seriously thinking about committing suicide.  I don't want the life that they want for me.  I don't want a life that's chosen for me.  I feel like I just woke up in the 17th or 18th century, when a woman was the property of a man!!!  All my life I heard how important it was for me to be independent.  I worked hard to obtain it, and now I know that they want dependence from me.  I'm giving up. 

http://www.causes.com/causes/476432-the-free-will-society-to-aid-targeted-individuals/about

https://sites.google.com/site/lucieperreaultsignal2012/harcelement-criminel-en-reseau-organized-stalking-1

http://www.scribd.com/doc/102541258/UN-Committee-Against-Torture-resolution-on-the-following-issues

The right you refuse to defend is the right you will someday need.

This too will be your story.

http://www.thistoowillbeyourstory.com

How come when articles that clue us in on the technology are uploaded, we get continuous spammy posts?

Is it meant to bury the most recent links?

Just asking.

1...when you are being set up just because someone considers you "not loyal"  because he knows you respect someone else's authority over you besides him (someone else you are SUPPOSED TO and BOUND TO respect)?

2... when the person blocks all your means of communicating with the person, gives you an alternate reality to give you the illusion you are communicating with the person when you are actually not, then in the same breath continuously poisons the other party with misinformation against you, as a damage control tactic, so if in case the other person gets to talk to you, you won't be believed?

3.... when the person continually harasses you with those who are willing to go with his tack and those who have "no choice" but to go with his plan and destroys everything that you are doing, blocks all that you have done, doesn't do what needs to be done from his side to address the issue, then throws the blame at you in front of the people who he's hiding the truth from?

4. ...when you know what the other party thinks you are getting yet that is not what you are actually being given .  The truth is, that is one of the things the person harassing you wants to hide from the other party.

5... when the person continually taunts you, creating fictional issues and issues outside your sphere to make you look bad?

6. .. when the person tries to harm you emotionally, spiritually and economically for you to lose your drive? 

7. ... when you have the necessary evidence to prove your claims and the person knows it so he's trying all forms of tactics  to ensure you are not believed?

It seems weird to me that all of the things I think to my self, that are suppose to be private. and then look at the world in styles of clothes, come into the world of fashion.

Strange. they had a concert here and all of the dresses I had saw. seemed to be familiar. because I had thought of the similar design

weeks before. It might just coincidence, but it does seem strange.

years ago I had written a novel and it was of a dream with in a dream. with in a dream. without telling any one of what I had written. 

a few months later. I had watched a music video of a dream with in a dream with in a dream. strange.

If I went to prison and got in a fight with one of my perps would that count against me in court?

Guys, this is really bothering me. Back in October or November of last year is when they really started getting into my personal life. My perps got on the internet and looked up the music that I listen to and insulted me about my music. All of this was done to me through electronic harassment and voice to skull. They listened to most, if not all of the songs that I listen to and harshly insulted me about it. They did this for days. They started doing this by reading my thoughts. They had no right to do this to me and I gave them no permission to do this to me. One night I was having a conversation with my grandmother and she asked me what music I listen to and a thought about a bands name popped up in my head and thats what got these people started. As for the insults, they called me many names. One of my perps said "your songs ain't shit". Thanks to my asshole perps, my musical tastes are trashed. Now everybody knows all the artists, songs, and types of music I listen to, thanks to these douchebags. Thanks to them, now I have to find new and different music to listen to. They know everything about my personal life. My life has been trashed. The music I listen to is no surprise to anyone now. Has this happened to anybody else? I have had thoughts about suicide because of this. They even knew I wanted to become a goth, but thanks to them I'm not going to become a goth because of the gossip and rumors that they have spread about me. Now everybody knows that I wanted to become a goth but its too late now thanks to the rumors and gossip, my personal life is trashed. My life is no surprise to anyone. My life is trash now. Is there anyone who can relate to this?

For a blog post later...

I GOOGLED THIS IS WHAT I CAME UP WITH

Anna - Evolution. Revolution.
annabot.sourceforge.net/Welcome. Anna is a chatbot designed to pass the Turing Test - having a human judge incapable of telling that the bot they are chatting to is not human. .

Almost every night for the past week or so, I've awakened at about 3 am to my knees and hips involuntarily jerking - keeping me up when I have things to do the next day.  And the person awake at that time, with her cell phone in hand, is my grand niece.  I'm afraid she's the next psychopath to enter the fray.  She plays a good little christian girl.  If this is christianity, I don't want any part of it anymore.  This is what the church is teaching our youth.  Do I hear everyone weeping for the future?

ES CORE PRACTICE TECHNIQUES FOR DAY TO DAY!

Step One:   Daily Declaration of Intention (resolve the authority problem between Ego And God)

“ My declaration of intention is to serve my Source. I commit to serve my highest power, fully completely and totally”

I am God, I am Sovereign, I am Free!I

STEP ONE in AM or PM: 12 D SHIELD –Learn to Command Dominion of your Energy Space

http://energeticdownloads.com/CD tracks/12 D Seal.mp3

The 12^th Dimensional Shield is to prepare your body to receive and hold an increasing flow of higher frequencies The First stages purposed for us in working with the 12 D shield is to achieve a certain level with the following PERSONAL results:

After this has been practiced with commitment and dedication on a regular basis, new levels of awareness will begin to emerge. Let this express itself freely and do your best to allow and do not place judgment on any …..experiences you may have. All of us are unique and may have different variations of experiences.

Depending on your soul gene code, lineage and willingness to be recruited for service to others orientation , you may find after a certain time of working with this technique that you are called to the second stages of building and working with larger fields of 12^th dimensional energy.  A certain level of personal light integrity must be stabilized in order to be effective to work with the larger 12th Dimensional vortexes. The 12 D Vortex fields are extremely effective at harmonizing personal environments and stabilizing energies such as planetary grid lines. Working to harmonize energy spaces is the next stages of working with the 12 D fields of energy. You can also think of this 12 D energy, in its Platinum color, as the Cosmic Christ Frequency. Still it is a good mental focus technique to practice daily your 12^th dimensional divine light shield, which is necessary to prepare your aura, and for the neurological entrainment of our NERVOUS SYSTEMS and energy fields to be receptive to the huge influxes of frequencies that are here and will continue to be forthcoming.

DAILY GOALS : MENTAL BODY HOMEWORK TO IMPROVE YOUR DAILY SELF AWARENESS 

AFFIRMATION: I AM GOD! I AM SOVEREIGN! I AM FREE! 

STEP ONE- DAILY GOAL: Monitor and Track your SELF –Awareness – By Cultivating “ THE WITNESS” 

The Witness or Observer has no judgment. It allows observation of external events without needing to control the outcome. Stay in the now moment. Practice this intentionally as a daily exercise by monitoring:

Mental Awareness - : Often our minds fall into a groove that has a certain tone or resonance to it. Sometimes our mind is agitated and sometimes our mind is very calm. We are expansive and receptive when we are calm, centered and mentally relaxed. When our mind feels agitated and stirred up, we then become constricted and energetically blocked. Agitation and worry often indicate that we are operating in the active Beta brain wavestate (which is where most adults operate from) .When our mental body and mind feel calm and flowing, it means we are in the more relaxed Alpha brain wave state (where children generally operate from). Try to operate from the Alpha brain wave state as much as possible since that expands and allows more energetic flow into your body. You will experience greater ease in your life and begin to go with the flow, allowing yourself to receive more “spiritual- energetic” support into your daily life. 

Self Talk Awareness - : We talk to ourselves all the time. We talk to ourselves over 50,000 times a day and what we say to ourselves determines to a large extent the quality of our lives. When you begin to meditate and hold more periods of inner silence, you will be amazed by the amount of self talk you start to witness sin yourself. Try to begin tuning in as much as possible to what you are saying to yourself in the still places of your very receptive mind.

STEP TWO- DAILY GOAL: The 5 Steps to Negative Ego Reprogramming – How to Shift Gears

The Law of Strength-Exercise to Discipline the Lower Mind

“It is Not God’s Job to control your Mind”

RELABEL  - Identify the negative thought or emotion as a distorted pattern of negative ego consciousness.This “Fear” is my Negative Ego. This is not the real me.

REATTRIBUTE - Dis-identify from the thought or emotion as you. You begin to master your emotional states and you can begin to choose. I am the eternal being, not my thoughts or emotions.

REFOCUS - Move yourself out of situation, environment or the trigger for that thought. Go for a walk, listen to music, change your focus. Affirm: Not my will but Divine.

REVALUE- Revalue the power you have given this thought or emotion to rule your life.  See it for what it truly IS. Limiting you. Disempowering you. Robbing you of inner peace and fulfillment as a Divine being. (Get behind ME, Ego! I AM that I AM!)

REQUEST Help - Commit to expressing Higher Emotion and Living your Soul Purpose. Ask for help from Spirit. Work your tools. Be here NOW!

Tools: Core Fear matrix removal program, Emotional Clearing Techniques, Affirmations and Decrees, Ascension Meditation treatments, Mantra chant to refocus mind, 12 D sealing,   Request Evolution teams to help. Ask guidance to lead you to the perfect resonance technique to assist you now. Breathe.

When you get anxious and notice a self defeating program of your ego taking over, apply breath and self forgiveness..

Emotional Release Technique- Quick

Good Emotional Tool for Immediate Circumstances :

1. Patience ( pause, step back, take a breath..)

2. Surrender to the process (The Divine is at work AGAIN!  Do not know why or what.. but okay! I will get myself out of the way)

3. Acceptance (I may not like it, but that is okay, I am at peace because something larger is at work)

4. Forgiveness (Tell the story, feel your feelings, Revalue them and shift perspective)

5. Be Here Now! Be Here Now! Be here Now!

Emotional Release Technique- Catharis

For a complete emotional release you may want to ask yourself a few questions about a few of the social experiences creating frustrations.

After each question is complete and you have answered it ( prefer to write it out) , REPEAT outloud STEP A.

What is your pay off for your disease/pain?:

What people do you need to forgive?

What do you feel guilty for?

Do you have the wisdom to know the difference? 

What can you change, what do you need to accept?

Are you being totally honest with yourself?

STEP A:

Even though I feel/ or have this (Answer to each question)______I deeply and completely accept myself.

STEP B:

Use to repattern/refocus every time you have an anxious or negative thought. State it as your intention in the AM when you wake up.

I stand in my truth.  I move forward with joy. I have spiritual understanding.

ES Meditation Treatment Support:

Brain Integration Treatment  20 minutes

www.energeticdownloads.com/BrainIntegrationTreatment.mp3

Brain balancing treatment to connect with the three levels of the Central Nervous System to integrate the hemispheres of the brain into a unified processing pattern. Reset Limbic system, Cingulate gyrus from obsessive or repetitive mental thought patterns. Activate proper Vagus nerve connection from the spinal column and into the pineal and central brain to improve functioning and resistance to mind control.

5D Higher Mind Integration  24.20 minutes

http://www.energeticdownloads.com/5DHigherMindMed.mp3

 The 5D Higher Mind Integration Meditation. Activate the Higher Mind functions within your 5D lightbody. Expand your mental field intelligence by upgrading the harmonic tone of your 3D mental body to be upgraded to the 5D Soul intelligence level. This will serve to translate information from other levels of your consciousness and support the 2009 5D planetary upgrade.

Clearing of the Mental body fields 38.55 minutes (HD**)

www.energeticdownloads.com/AscNov09MED.mp3

Heavy duty holographic repair to distorted mental body fields and build a sturdy spiritual house foundation. Termination of harmful portals or dimensions creating vulnerability in the mental body fields. Collapsing and removal of implants or distortions of masculine energies relating to mental bodies. Release and removal of Vesica Pisces harnesses to allow merging of inner sacred marriage. Merge of masculine and feminine geometries as well as a call to merge with “twin” counterpart internal and external. Reposition of natural and organic “umbilicus to merge direct with God fields by removing intermediary “ membranes”.

Alpha/Omega clearing 40.48 minutes (HD**)

www.energeticdownloads.com/AOAOmegaClear.mp3

Heavy and in depth Alpha to Omega Zip Core Clearing when you have more time for sleep integration and recovery ( A “ZIP” clearing is referred to as a “ A-Z”, top to bottom, bottom to top, internal to external, external to internal, 12 Bodies, etc. You do not want to ask for ZIP clearing unless you have time and space to integrate the opening of “zip” clearing files) Release entrapment or obfuscator cords of complex soul or entity bindings ( de-possessions) and assign new gatekeepers for Ascension in Cosmic Christ ( Eternal) Intelligences. Harmonic imprints reinstalled to all layers of 12 primary seed codes of DNA ladder. Protection and cloaking strengthening through the Golden Fleece Buffers ( 8D Monad and 14D fields admin by RA Family) . Remove victim victimizer archetypes and related matrices from the cellular memory sourcing from ancient battles within the history of this Universal Time Matrix. Establish Independent divine right choice of each being to ensure ”Single Soul Occupancy” if so in divine right order and harmony. ( release Indigo 3 or split soul contracts if it is so in right timing)