Keep in mind that the perps and their complices are not only committing a crime against you, but against the whole humanity, because the technology and methods they use on us today, will be perfected and used on the next generations. So apart from being evil they're also retarded because their descendants might be the targets of tomorrow (since no one is irreplaceable).

Covert Operations of NSA

I don't know if what is written in this article is all true (I can't verify the information provided), but it could certainly answer most of my questions. John St Clair Akwei sued the NSA for using their mind control technology on him and that is the evidence he brought for his lawsuit.

What's more interesting is that in May 2005, a top secret law was adopted in Romania that made possible for the Romanian Secret Services to gain acces to the american low altitutude satellites (MONSAT) that intercept any kind of communication plus extremely low frequency (ELF) radiation.

So it's been a lot since I last posted here so I'm gonna tell a little about what has happened to me lately.

I've been unemployed for the last half a year and haven't payed my rent since then. I had some awuful torture days, but the last month was a bit better. I've also had some fake heart attacks. I live with three dickheads that all they do is piss me off. I have also found out that one of my old friends from my native town is also being gang stalked.

All of my senses are messed up. I can hardly feel any smell. I can see everything as through the screen of a camera with motion detection. I can hear infrasounds. My sense of touch is also messed up. I can't even feel the environmental temperature as I should. I've banged my head really hard against the wardrobe door (which is fairly thick) a couple of times and I hardly felt anything at all.

I'm having tinnitus 24/7 and I can also hear sometimes some sort of metallic sounds coming from withing my skull (these are even worse than tinnitus).

Things I've noticed. Because of their constant assaults with electromagnetic waves on me, energy accumulates either on the top of my head or on my chest (or both). When I rub these parts I can feel as if I tried to clean the dust off of an old TV screen with my bare hand (if anyone knows what's that like).

Things that help: head excercises, concentrating on my blinking, breething deeply, burning my palm with a cigarette, covering my ears, qigong.

I have to trust my principles and my logic, because they're really messing up with my feelings. As such, my empathy has decreased and my thirst for revenge is continuously increasing. When I think of the things that have happened this last year I can hardly feel anything at all. I can feel that each day I'm becoming less human. This is clearly a military experiment. They want to create mind controlled hypervigilent war machines.

I'm going to list some of the methods they use to make my social life exhausting:

- they make me look at a certain person and then insert disturbing (agressive, sexual) thoughts and/or agressive impulses

- they focus my attention on a particular thing people are saying and then insert similar (agressive, sexual thoughts about the others or humilliating thoughts about myself) thoughts related to what they were saying and/or anger (a certain word can bring up the same thought over and over again, everytime I hear it) 

- they make me notice certain gestures people do and then insert similar thoughts and/or anger

- they make me spot unaesthetical things of other people and then insert offending commentaries in my mind

- they make me lose my interest/patience when conversating

- induced racing thoughts or racing inner conversation

- induced anger or hornyness when someone touches me or walks close to me

- induced narcissism 

- induced paranoia 

Also they use some of these methods to cancel the positive emotional feedback of doing a good deed. 

These methods are usually coupled with others' strange reactions (as if they knew what I was thinking/feeling).

So this brings me to the question: do you think that people around us can really read our minds?

So one day last year a co-worker suggested me to watch some reality show. So I did. But it was very weird. Everytime I looked at a certain person at that show, they'd start to blink frantically. And then I found out that this was the case on other channels also (even on the Larry King show!). I watched these shows when they weren't live and they didn't do that at all. They'd also laugh when I'd do or say something funny.

Also, one time they made me have a crush on a girl at work. And during those days, all the music channels were playing non stop love songs that they never played before. They'd wake me up every night at 2 am, and make me listen to love songs all the time I spent home. My apparent "love" for that girl reached very high levels (and I hadn't even talked to her much before that), because they were giving impulses too. Anyway, that girl didn't show up at work for the next 2 weeks or so, and so the feelings faded away.

Also for about 2 or 3 months, I would hear the same songs over and over again (on TV, on the radio etc.).

Last year presidential elections were held in Romania. Everyone around me would say only good things about one candidate, and bad things about the other. And this was happening on facebook too. All of my fb friends would post favorable post about one candidate and negative posts about the other.

One day I ate beans and got bloated. The next day I'd read an article on the spanish yahoo talking about beans and bloating. And it wasn't the only article that related to me.

Has anything similar happened to you as well?

Since gang stalking and mental torture began last year, I've been experiencing better heath.

I used to have high blood pressure, tachycardia, nosebleed, eye floaters, swollen and painful fingers during very cold days, dizziness during physical effort, numb limbs, and pains and stings all over the body (heart, liver, pancreas, stomach, kidneys, lungs, neck, head, bladder, testicles, penis and rectal pains). These have occured constantly in a 4 years period.

I also had a lot of panic attacks in 2009, but unlike the symptoms I have listed, the panic attacks were produced by hign anxiety levels, while during the other symptoms there was no anxiety involved. The panic attacks started one morning when upon waking up I felt my heart tingling (something that I feel on a daily basis now). That's why I'm inclined to believe that all these symptoms were the product of their manuvering.

As I was saying, since last year I've been experiencing better health (low blood pressure, normal heart rate, and all the other symptoms are gone). Also, I can't even remember when was the last time I caught a flu. But the most notable change is that my eyes are always wide open and I blink much less often now.

They do fake heart attacks from time to time, when I refuse to do what they want. (for example, one day last year I said that I would not return to the industrial farm I was working at, so they faked a heart attack to make me change my mind). So far they have faked about 4 or 5 heart attacks.

Has anyone else noticed physical/health changes since they began being stalked/tortured?

This is an extract from Theodore Millon's "Personality Disorders in Modern Life", Antisocial Personality Disorder section:

At the very boundary of normality and pathology, we find persons who have never
come into conflict with the law, but only because they are very effective in covering
their tracks. Although these individuals share with most antisocials a guiltless willingness
to deceive and exploit others, they are not overtly physically cruel. Instead,
their premeditated restraint often makes them seem more sadistic than antisocial.

Stereotypes include industrialists and entrepreneurs who flourish in the gray area of
legal technicalities, as well as savvy corporate executives who exploit some market position, monopoly power, or regulatory loophole for huge advantage, even at great costs to others. Individuals who systematically dismember corporations for their own self-gain through hostile takeovers, for example, cannot be regarded as completely normal, much less altruistic.

Similarly, for many politicians, the deception of doublespeak is a talent necessary for
survival. Skirting the edge of deceitfulness, they “spin” objective events by minimizing
negatives and exaggerating positives. When cornered, they focus attention on mitigating
circumstances and lie by omission by failing to report the total circumstances and full
motives of their actions. Moreover, they deliberately create public policy so complex
that any particular aspect might be singled out to impress the special interest of the moment.

All are “premeditating antisocials.” In everyday life, they flourish in the form of
the smooth-talking businessman and the less-than-forthcoming used-car salesman.
Their damage to society is not as vivid as that of the murdering psychopath, but it is
more common and just as great and constitutes an important reminder than any scientific
theory of the antisocial personality must span both normality and pathology.

And this one is from Wikipedia's "Personality Disorder" page:

In 2005 and again in 2009, psychologists Belinda Board and Katarina Fritzon at the University of Surrey, UK, interviewed and gave personality tests to high-level British executives and compared their profiles with those of criminal psychiatric patients at Broadmoor Hospital in the UK. They found that three out of eleven personality disorders were actually more common in executives than in the disturbed criminals:

Histrionic personality disorder: including superficial charm, insincerity, egocentricity and manipulation.

Narcissistic personality disorder: including grandiosity, self-focused lack of empathy for others, exploitativeness and independence.

Obsessive-compulsive personality disorder: including perfectionism, excessive devotion to work, rigidity, stubbornness and dictatorial tendencies.

According to leading leadership academic Manfred F.R. Kets de Vries, it seems almost inevitable these days that there will be some personality disorders in a senior management team.

I don't know if this has already been discussed, but I think that they can control us because we are full of remotely controlled cell-sized nanobots. But this is just my opinion.

 The DNA nanobots have arrived

In a recent interview with The Wall Street Journal, Kurzweil highlights why Google has taken an interest in nanotechnology and the possibilities he sees for humans as they increasingly become non-biological and form direct connections with computers, augmenting and/or supplanting our natural processes as we head into the era of cyborgs and beyond.

And of course once our neocortex is uploaded to the Cloud, it positions Google perfectly for searching our every thought and pre-thought. While this might sound like an impossible amount of information to upload, let alone interconnect and search, it is being announced that researchers have designed the first nanocomputer that can push beyond the concept of Moore's Law, which imposes a theoretical limitation on the expansion of computer processing power.

I think that we are already connected to the Cloud.

The many uses of nanobots

Since these robots are so small, they can be inserted into a person’s biological system without any noticeable effects. They are so small, in fact, that they may be the same size as blood cells. They can either be remotely controlled or pre-programmed for a certain procedure.

This is the best explanation I have found so far for some of the things that happen to us (thought reading, seeing what we see, control over our own body movements etc.). 

What do you think about it?

I have many reasons to believe that my family is involved in this and I'll explain why.

The ones that really cared about me are now dead (my mother and my grandparents). 

It's surprising how one of my sisters (who lived with my father most of her life in another town) and one of my cousins got hired in the romanian secret services at about the same time I believe they first started to monitor me.

My boss (the veterinary doctor) where I worked at the industrial farm and where all this started was my brother's (who aswell lived in another town with my father) sister in law. She infested my mind with stories about alledged irregularities that took place there. But they were just stories meant to play with my mind. She posed as the righteous one and made me report all the alledged irregularities that the workers were doing. They were supposingly stealing stuff and chicks from the farm and selling them to the mafia.

My father and my brother aslo told me such stories. And one day when my brother's wife told me to find a girl, and to get married and have a family of my own, my brother replied ironically "haha, what a joke".

One day the workers talked to her, and she acted as she had lost her confidence in me. In the meanwhile, a lot of killer faced guys started to wander around in my neighborhood and throwing threataning looks at me.

I went the next day to my sister's birthay party somewhere outside town. There many suspicious looking guys were present. I was standing in front of my sister's brother in law. Menwhile my brother and his wife came. The first thing his wife asks was "how's work". So I started to talk about the alledged irregularities and that my boss (her sister) lost confidence in me. When my sister's brother in law heard what I was saying, he went to talk to my sister's godfather and I could hear them as they were angrily saying "we have no other choice, we have to get rid of him". When I heard them I started to feel like that was the last day of my life. Then they started to put happy music, and everyone started to dance, and I could hear them making jokes about how some people die younger and everyone was laughing (especially those who were from the secret services). It was horrendous.

Next day I was afraid to leave the house. I went shopping with my father, and I could see how a lot of black vans and suv's (as if they were going to kidnap me) and even more suspicious persons (they were better dressed, as if important local figures were also involved) that threw threataning looks at me started to wander all the places I went to. Nobody believed me when I told them that I was being followed, and when I told my father that I want to quit my job and leave town, he told that "he would be done with me if I did that". But anyway it turned out that it was just a hoax.

Then my family started to avoid me more and more as this experiment (or whatever) advanced through once phase to another. My father treated me badly the whole time I stayed there. It was more than clear to me that he wanted me out of there. And how did they do it? They put me through more and more mental torture as the time of my father's return from the countryside was closing in (he went there shortly after I got hired and he let me live alone all this time). I couldn't stand it anymore, I quit the job and went somewhere in the countryside decided to commit suicide. I spent all my money and smashed my cellphone. But they didn't let me do it. It took me 3 days to return home. In the meanwhile, my other sister (the one who lives in the capital) reported to the police that I was missing. So the day I returned from my journey she came and took me with her to the capital. My father (nor my other brother and sister) didn't stay not even 1 whole day with me since the mental torture began.

I believe that they tried to start this in 2008. He told me back then that he had found a job for me (the same job at the industrial chicken farm). But when I got there, I noticed that they were acting weird so I decided to return to my hometown to live with my grandparents (they were alive back then). I remember he was enraged by my decision.

My father (along with a sister and a brother) left us when I was 2. He never showed any affection and I have many reasons to believe that they are involved.

In my case they have been using a lot of signs that might have no significance. They might be used to keep me hypnotized or maybe they're a false clue. They're used over and over again. These include:
- People walking with dogs
- Steam coming out of sewers
- Airplanes crossing the sky
- Intermittent lights (from cars, trucks, bycicles etc.)
- People walking with their kids
- Cars with certain number plates. Number plates in Romania are comprised of 2 digits and 3 letters. The most common are: ZZZ - suggesting that this is just a dream; MMM - suggesting that they enjoy this sadistic game?; MUM, MWM, MOM - reference to my dead mother etc.

One day last summer, they played a game on me. They made me believe that all female made some sort of signs, and that each certain group of females (single, married, widowed etc.) made certain signs. So I went to the streets to test it. Each and every woman made a sign (the most common were: searching through the purse, carrying a bag, eating ice cream, waving the hand through her hair, throwing a look at me and then looking away, staring at me etc.). My eyes were moving faster than I could have imagined in order not to miss someone (it was them controlling my eyes of course). But the fact was that none of them was apparently single (all of these signs were made both by women who were single and by women who were accompanied by men aswell).

These are the symptoms that I had since all this started:

- Induced anger, calmness, affection, repulsion, hornyness, irritation, anxiety, fear, sadness, satisfaction, amusement, desperation

- Urges to kill

- Lack of control over my own body

- Psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, catatonia)

- Mania, derealization, depersonalization, changes in the way I percieve myself

- Illusions (visual, auditory)

- Panic attacks

- Manipulated hearing (hearing even the slightest sounds, echoed hearing, background noise seems louder than it actually is)

- Manipulated smelling (diminished smelling ability, every smell provokes nausea)

- Manipulated seeing (all colours seem brighter or duller than they actually are, ability to see everything that moves in sight at the same time)

- Induced physical pain and stinging, numbing and tingling of limbs

- Manipulated internal organs (heart, prostate, stomach)

- Talking brain, heart and brain tingling

Sometimes I also feel the urge to take off my pants while in public spaces haha.

I can expain why these symptoms have not occured in a natural manner, if anyone is doubting it.