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Thousands of victims are suffering covert abuses and tortures of remote voice to skull and remote electromagnetic mind control technologies.

Symptoms of Mind Control Weapons


According to my personal experiences of the persecution, there are some more harms than these External Symptoms.


Up to March, 2012, I had following problems.

(1) The horrible suffering aged me so quickly. In 2002, everyone said I looked like only 20 years old.

(2) Because the long time horrible torture, I had serious endocrinopathy. My menses were very abnormal and less.

(3) Because of suffering horrible pain and other diseases, I often curled up in a tight ball; this had brought me serious kyphosis. I also suffered serious problems of cervical vertebra.

(4) Because of the horrible suffering every day; I could not sleep well at night, and could not have the energy to move outside at day time, I had Social Isolation.


Actions that I have taken to solve these problems: 

Since the second half year of 2012, I joined a small Chinese martial art hobby group which had hobby group activities every night. I learned to play Tai Chi. After half year practicing Taiji, I cured kyphosis and problems of cervical vertebra; I reduced endocrinopathy; my menses were improved.

I had been taking a lot of edible Chinese medicinal herbs teas which were good for alleviating pain, helping sleep, easing depression, relieving anxiety, strengthening immunity. People in the countryside in our areas liked to make their daily dishes with those edible Chinese medicinal herbs, or make teas. 

Up to May 2013, I found two following problems:

In May 2013, I had two mental health and personality tests: one was for depression and Anxiety disorder; one was for Homosexual Orientation.

I had mild to moderate depression; I did not have anxiety disorder; My Homosexual Orientation grew from 0 to 20%.

It was clear that the abuses and tortures of mind control technologies could harm our mental health and personality. 

Actions that I have taken to solve these problems:

Practicing Taiji appeares to be an effective treatment for mild to moderate depression;

Going for a long walk along the river, in the trees, or along the beach is good ways to relieve depression.

Taking some edible Chinese medicnal herbs is good for depression.

Making true friend with a fine man could halt Homosexual Orientation.


Mind Control Pepetrators always look for excuses to mask their guilts.

No matter what excuses they had found to mask their guilts, their crimes and guilts would never be forgiven.

The following excuses they often used to mask their guilts. (or to let me believe they are not bad)

(1) They said we controlled your mind to make you to become the queen of the south.

(2) They said, we can make you more reality or more clever.

(3) They said we can help you with your career.

(4) They said all governments supported our work, governments had asked us to arrange a somewhat satisfied

 Later life for you after the long time sufferings. We are the only group who are able to arrange your later life and make you satisfied.


How to be yourself after being tortured and harassed by mind control technologies?

First of all, it is hard to be yourself after being tortured and harassed by mind control technologies. Torturers injected thoughts, dreams to your brain; altered your memories; squeezed your emotions; confused your thoughts; muddled your characters........ 

There was an air of gloom and despair hanging over victims who realized that they were no longer themselves. 

During such a horrible situation, God came to me and told me to keep faith in God, and listened to God's words in the Bible. 

Soleilmavis Liu, Author of the book: “Twelve Years in the Grave – Mind Control with Electromagnetic Spectrums, the Invisible Modern Concentration Camp”, is helping the public understand voice-to-skull, and remote electromagnetic mind control technologies. Her book provides the sound facts and evidence about the secret abuse and torture with such technologies. 


I have collected many reported articles which introduced 'mind control technologies'. The listing of these articles will not mislead readers; it is a short cut for readers to learn what mind control technologies are.

Story of Soleilmavis

Soleilmavis case summary of mind control abuses and tortures

Life of Soleilmavis in Brief Summary

Some News articles about Soleilmavis

Some lawsuits filed by Soleilmavis


The followings were some intermittent dairies.

January 24, 2013

Torturers did not allow me to sleep at night on January 24, 2013.

I went to bed at 9 pm, but they tortured me and harassed me and did not allow me to sleep until 12:30 am.  I could not sleep, then I got up and checked my email and posted some new messages to

2:30 am, I went to bed again and tried to sleep for a while, but I only could sleep lightly and intermittently. At 7 am I got up from Bed. Torturers tortured me and let me have a heavy headache for the whole night.


January 25, 2013

Again, torturers did not allow me to sleep well at night on January 25, 2013.

They did not allow me to sleep early at night, and woke me up very early in the morning.

January 26,2013

Torturers only allowed me to sleep about 2 hours at night on January 26,2013.

Since 2002, they started not allowing me to sleep well at night. They used to only allow me to sleep one hour per night during a week of May 2002.

I keep writing my horrible suffering experiences day by day.

I wish to remember here that even we have exposed voice to skull technologies, remote electromagnetic mind control technologies to public, but torturers still could tortured and harassed us cruelly and governments still ignored our complaints.


January 27, 2013

I want to sleep for a while at daytime, but torturers kept harassing me and torturing me with voice to skull  and remote electromagnetic mind control technologies. They did not allow me to sleep, even they only allowed me to sleep for 2 hours yesterday night.

These days, torturers only allowed me to sleep about 4-5 hours per day; but today, only 2 hours.

I have drunk herbal tea which is made by root of Salvia miltiorrhiza Bunge and roots of Spine Date for several days. This herbal tea used to be very good for helping sleep. But now it did not work well when torturers kept harassing me and torturing me with their weapons.

I still keep drinking such herbal tea which can help maintain good conditions of brain functions.

For me, I indeed need 8-9 hours sleeping time everyday. Torturers deprive me of my sleeping rights. Torturers are real fascists. 

Root of Salvia miltiorrhiza Bunge:

Action: To remove blood stasis and relieve pain, promote the flow of blood and stimulate menstrual discharge, and ease the mind.

Indications: Menstrual disorders, amenorrhea, dysmenorrhea, mass formation in the abdomen, pricking pain in the chest and abdomen, pain in acute arthritis, pyocutaneous disease, restlessness and insomnia, hepatosplenomegaly, angina pectoris. 

Spine Date Seed

Action: To replenish the liver, cause tranquilizations, arrest sweating, and promote the production of body fluids.

Indications: Insomnia with deficient restlessness, palpitation, dreaminess, excessive sweating due to debility, thirst due to consumption of body fluids.

Root of Spine Date has similiar action and indications with Spine Date Seed. 

January 28, 2013

Torturers allowed me to sleep for 5 hours last night, but still sufferred the pain in head, and 'injected dreams'.

I will try to sleep one or two hours in the afternoon. 


January 29, 2013

Again torturers only allowed me to sleep for 3 hours last night, and let me suffer so much pain in head. and 'injected' thoughts and dreams to my brain. 

January 30, 2013

Again, torturers only allowed me to sleep for 3 hours last night, and let me suffer so much pain in head, and 'injected' thoughts and dreams to my brain.

Torturers were discussing why they could not fully control me now, but they could fully control me when they firstly torturerd and harassed me with their weapons.

As a victim who have sufferred long term persecution, I did understand why.

After such a long time suffering experience, and after God came to me and directed me how to do, I have learned that torturers allowed part of my brain to be myself, so that I could live in my family like a human; to eat, to speak, to walk.........

With the part of my brain, I still could have the basic concept of right and wrong. so I knew they have done so many bad thing to me --- torturing me, making me suffer a lot, controlling my thoughts, controlling my 'dreams'; controlling my behaviors; 'injecting' thoughts and dreams to my brain; depriving me of sleeping; harassing me with their voices.

Torturers were real fascists, who have been putting victims in invisibale the fascist concentration camps for more than ten years.

Governments and public, who ignored victims complaint, really did not have justice in their mind and they were really unrighteousness.

And I knew God was really just.

God asked me to be a soldier of him to fight against such horrible crime, to win justice in my case. God directed me to expose such horrible crime to public. 


Jan 31 2013

Again, torturers did not allow me to sleep last night. I sufferred horrible pain and 'injecting' thoughts and 'dreams'.

The more suffering experiences I endured, the lesser remnant energy I remained.

Before 2009, I still could have energy to help victims to edit their case stories, and even translated some English articles into Chinese. And I still could have energy to sort victims stories, and tried to help them to appeal with their cases.

But now, I felt that I did not have enough energy to do any job.

In 2010, I created this website and wished victims could find each other and help each other.

And for me, I only could focus on discussing my personal case with everyone I met, and sent my case summary to them, and asked them to help me.

(My brain did not work well too, I even could not remember most victims' names)

With the vestige of the remnant energy, I still worked hard to write letters and tried hard to wish to get my book (ten years in the grave) published.

I do still have faith that I will win justice in USA. 

February 2, 2013

Torturers allowed me to sleep about 5.5 hours at night, but still sufferred pain and 'injected' thoughts and dreams.

I tried to sleep for about one more hour in the afternoon these days.

Today, I feel a little bit better.


February 6, 2013

Torturers allowed me to sleep about 4 hours last night, and sufferred pain and 'injected' thoughts and dreams.

I tried to have heart-to-heart talk with intimate people who loved me, I shared my thoughts with them, even I did not have to let them know I was torturing by remote voice to skull and remote electromagnetic mind control technologies, they did understand my  frustrating and depressing thoughts, they tried to cheer me up; showed me how much they loved me; encouraged me to be strong.

They let me know that they treasured me because many of my fine qualities deserved their praising. They reminded me that I still had so many fine qualities, and I should preserve my original  good characters. 


February 11, 2013

Mind Control victims have been deprived of their rights to development and freedom.

And governments and public indeed have ignored victims' complaint.

Educating public about such technologies is the most important way to bring public awareness and get concerns about victims voices. 


March 12, 2013

Torturers did not allow me to sleep for the whole night. Suffering horrible pain, shame, and sexual harassment.

I will never give up to seek justice and urge government to investigate torturers and sentence them according to law.

I fully understand how hard to find justice and sentence torturers in our cases. But As long as you don't give up, there is hope.

Never give up when you still have something to give. Nothing is really over until the moment you stop trying.


The updating day to day suffering experiences could be found from comments to this post.

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My "Anxiety" attacks by the perpetrators

If you feel like reading this, then go ahead. Some areas are repetitive, but this is what I go through when my "anxiety" attacks happen. This is what the perpetrators do to me some days. Do you experience this stuff? Let me know.


This is what I go through with my “Anxiety” attacks



So far so good it's all in the hood, so far so good it's all in the hood, what was that noise? Where did theycome from...look out! So far so good it's all in the hood. That'scool. That was a close one, that was a even closer one. Look out! Sofar so good it's all in the hood. What was that noise? Where did theycome from! That's cool. That was a close one, that was even a closerone. That's cool. So far so good it's all in the hood. Like, like,like a high school cowboy...dun dun. Like like like like a highschool cowboy, dun dun. Like like like like a high school cowboy dundun. Like like like like a high school cowboy, dun dun. Like likelike like a High school cowboy, dun dun.


(Then I said shut the fuck up to these other thoughts and this is what happened after wards). Distortedthoughts and then the word, Asshole is said. Ha, ha, ha, ha ha, talesfrom the crypt. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha tales from the crypt.


(You shut the fuck up is what I said to these thoughts and this is what happened). Distorted thoughts. No,you shut the fuck up is said back to me in my mind.


I have the anxious feeling going on as I type this. Like like like like a high school cowboy, dun dun.Pressure in my skull is happening. You're an idiot James (this issaid towards me in my mind). More pressure. Even more fire power.Dun, dun, duuuunnn. Idiot is said towards me in my mind. You're suchan idiot James stupid mother fucker. Fucking pussy. Racing heartstarts and I still have pressure in my skull. Fucking...Fag...loser.Pussy ass bit...Suck a...distorted thoughts. That was a closer one,that was even a closer one. Look out! Pressure increases. Jolt(twitch) on my upper right arm. I have a hard time breathing becauseof the severe pressure in my skull. Jolt (twitch) on my right eye. Ifeel a bit shakey. So far so good it's all in the hood. What was thatnoise? Where did they come from! Look out! And the...naaaaaaaaaaathe.So far so good it's all in the hood. What was that noise? Where didthey come from! Look out! Distorted thoughts. Fucking...come far sogood it's all in the hood.


What was...I guess, I guess this is the beginning of the end. Congratulations, you won! So far so good it'sall in the hood. What was that noise? Where did they come from. Lookout! No you're wrong there Jam...So far so good it's all in the hood.What was that noise, where did they come from. Damn it, Jaaaammmeees!That was a closer one, that was even a closer one. Look out!


Your dumb James was said about 4 times while I was typing this part. That was a closer one...distortedthoughts. That's cool. That was a close one, that was even a closerone. Look out!


So, how's your day is said 3 times while I type this part. Pressure is still present in my skull.Forever, trust me. We're on the high way to hell. Twitch on my rightshoulder blade. Where on the, where on, where on, where on, where on,where on, where on, where on, where on, where on, blah blah blah blahblah! What the fuck. That was a close one! That was a closer one!Look out! So far so good, it's all in the hood. Peace out douche bag.Idiot. Fucking faggot. That's not what I said douche bag!


And then I ended the rest of what was being said in my mind on 11/18/2010. So now you know what happenswith my anxiety attacks and what I am going through every time itstarts.


I usually record what's happening to me on my computer. Actually, I have been doing this for quite some time.

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Random Thoughts

The mind and how it works


Certain sounds can cause certain triggers of images to be produced in the mind.


The human mind can be explored in many ways, it just depends on the person and how they want to explore it. Certain sounds can trigger certain thoughts in the mind. Take for
instance the sound of a bell ringing. If one hears a bell ringing,
then the mind produces an image of a bell. The same goes with smells.
Certain smells can cause a trigger in the mind. The mind produces an
image of the smell or tries to produce an image of what the smell is.
If you smell a rose, then your mind will produce a picture of a rose.
When you say don't t think of this or that, then you end up thinking
about it in your mind, but when you say do think of it, you don't
think of it, at least that's how my mind works.


Now take electromagnetic radiation, a silent weapon, and use it on someone's mind. Pointing the weapon directly at their brain and you get horrible results. If one is
happy, energetic, up going, fun, and wanting to take on the whole
world, these weapons can turn that around. You have a weapon that can
affect someone's mind so bad with this radiation, that it turns that
person into a fearful, non energetic, paranoid, depressed, unhappy
person. This silent kind of weapon being used on people can make one
look as if she/he has a mental disease and is in need of treatment.
The hearing of voices, how can one explain that? Truly, is it my own
mind doing this? Is my mind so messed up that I want to speak out of
terms in my own mind and not be able to control it? The research is
that there's an imbalance in the brain cortex and that's why the
hearing of the voices occur, same with bi-polar disease and chronic
depression. Medication and Psychiatry treatment are suppose to help
this area, but does this really work with one's who claim to be
Targeted Individuals? If they seek professional help and nothing is
changing, then what? Are they still considered mentally ill and
crazy? What about the facts they lay out? Why not take that into
consideration? Technology is so advanced, why wouldn't silent
electronic harassment weapons be possible in today's society? What
makes it impossible to exist? Why the use of silent weapons and why
is it being used unwillingly on people in the United States? Test
subjects. To see how they will react to the “attacks” as I call
it. It's an experiment. When you create something, you want to try it
out. So you experiment on objects and things to see how it works. If
it fails or doesn't do exactly as you would expect it to, then you go
back to the drawing board. You tweek it and start over again. If it
works as planned, you eventually upgrade it and keep the
experimentation going to see how the objects react to it til you get
to the point where you are confident you can use it on a wide range
of objects without error. Same with this technology. The people or
shall I say Military and Government body who funds it, are
experimenting with it right now (a guess, but a pretty good guess).
And that's why you have Targeted Individuals. They are seeing how the
people chosen are reacting to it and if they fight back or not or
commit suicide, give up, do as they are told (voices in the
head/orders), etc. No wonder people killed others because they were ordered to do so by the voices in their heads. I have done a lot of research in the past and a
lot of thinking every day to come up with this theory. What's your
opinion on this?

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Dictator of my mind

TheDictator of my MindMind ControlWhether you may or may not believe inMind Control and technology being the main source of it to dominateand control populations in the world, these things are very real andare not science fiction. Every notice cell phone towers everywhere? Imean, in almost every town or city, there is one close by. Maybe youhaven’t because you are oblivious to it and living your daily life,but it is a good thing to not only be aware of your surroundings, butto be aware of your thinking patterns. What am I exactly implyinghere? Ever hear someone say that they didn’t know the lyrics tothis song that they were thinking about? Or how about this; do youhave random songs jamming in your mind and you go along with it? Orare the songs in your mind torturing you and you want it to stop?Maybe you have a mental disease and that’s why you can’t controlit, but a little medicine and an evaluation should do thetrick…right? Or is it even you doing it to begin with since youcan’t control it? Ask someone without making it known what yourintentions are, and see if they’ll agree with you and admit theyhave songs playing in their head. Then ask them if they can controlit at any given time, such as not thinking about it when they feellike it. If they can’t, then they must have a mental disease, sincea mental disease is something uncontrollable and is imbalanced,right? I guess all people are mentally unstable if they have anuncontrollable song playing in their mind? Did you know that cellphone towers are being hidden in different states, especiallyCalifornia, so they can blend in with the environment? Why is that?Are cell phone towers used for Mind Control, or are they used forwhat they say they are used for…cell phone coverage? I mean, thathas to be it since they are being erected up everywhere so they canprovide coverage for people in every city, town, and even in theoutskirts. What if they are not only being used for that purpose?What if they are controlling people’s thoughts? If you haven’tnoticed, take a closer look at all this technology being developed.It seems like almost every other day something new is coming out inthe market that’s so advanced, sleek, and well designed. So, ifthese devices are being created, why wouldn’t it be possible forElectromagnetic Mind Control to be developed? You must have heardabout mind control somewhere? Mind control in other countries?Dictators? Adolph Hitler?Did you know that inSouth Korea, it has a living gallery? The pictures actually makeconversations to you. You can ask it a question and it will give youan answer! Wow, that’s some fancy piece of equipment. Ever look upin the sky and see random planes flying all over the place? Thosemust be test pilots flying around or maybe there’s some kind of airshow practice? Wait, if that’s so…then why is there some kind oftrail coming off the back of them? Oh, that’s just contrail. Youknow, contrail…moisture being left behind because of the altitudeof the air. Wait a minute? Doesn’t contrails disperse after a fewseconds? So why in the world are these trails still in the sky afterhours end? Chemtrails or chemical trails are being sprayed in theatmosphere. Oh, it’s the protect the ozone layer from becomingworse…maybe it is or maybe it’s part of the mind control agenda?The whole ozone layer is a big lie anyways, because the hole hasopened up and nothing has happened. Scientists say there will beanother ice age, no wait! Global warming! No, another ice age, noyour wrong, global warming! Yeah, that’s it…global warming (wink,wink). Okay, moving on to the reason why psychiatrists wereintroduced. If you are having mental problems, what is the firstthing someone may say to you to help you find the solution so you candeal with it? “Maybe you should see a professional who deals withthat kind of stuff so they can help find the right medicine for you.”Ok, so now you end up seeing a psychiatrist and he/she evaluates youby asking questions and referring to their owner’s manual, Howto treat the unstable. By this manual, theymake assumptions on what the problem/s could be and ask for a releaseforum to acquire any medical records and your past history, so theycan verify if you have had signs of a mental disease or have at onetime been diagnosed. I was joking about the manual, but they do go bytheir education and training to make educational assumptions andsuggestions for you. Would anyone listen to someone who isschizophrenic, bi-polar, depressed, or mentally ill when it came toexplaining why he or she believes they have this disease? They wouldprobably listen but not agree since the metal patient doesn’t havea professional education on mental disease. How many psychiatristsactually have had bi-polar or depression? Not the, I got the bluesfor a few days each month depression. I’m talking about the severeI’m a pathetic and worthless human being and I just want to diedepression. I believe a big number of psychiatrists have never feltthis kind of depression. It’s all a trick when you go to apsychiatrist. Once you are labeled, anything you say is disregarded.“He has bi-polar, so he’s coo-coo in the mind. This guy doesn’tknow what he’s talking about.” They give the hamster wheel signalby their head towards the mental patient.Patient:So Mr. or Mrs. Psychiatrist, I have a constant song being played inmy mind and it wont stop. Can you help me? Psychiatrist:Sure I can, all I have to do is find the right medicine that willhelp treat your mental disease. Patient:Mental disease!You could be psychotic or have a formof it, as a psychiatrist would say. What is the first thing you thinkof when you hear the word Psychotic? A crazy unemotional human beingor a Psychopath ready to kill somebody; Psycho the movie…dun dundun dun, and then the murder in the shower scene. At least I used towhen I heard it (probably still would) because of the media,television, radio, movies, and music. Am I Psychotic? Maybe I am,maybe not. I feel I am desensitized with my emotions at times becauseof these electromagnetic mind-controlling devices attacking meconstantly. But, I worry a lot and care too much of what people thinkabout me. Psychopaths don’t have any emotions or a conscioustowards someone. I must be a sociopath!A sociopath isa person who has antisocial personality disorder. Theterm sociopath isno longer used to describe this disorder. The sociopath isnow described as someone with antisocial personality disorder.The main characteristicof a sociopath isa disregard for the rights of others. Sociopaths are also unable toconform to what society defines as a normal personality. Antisocialtendencies are a big part of the sociopath’spersonality. This pattern usually comes into evidence around the ageof 15. If it is not treated, it can develop into adulthood.Visible symptoms includephysical aggression andthe inability to hold down a steady job. The sociopath alsofinds it hard to sustain relationships and shows a lack of regret inhis or her actions. A major personality behavior trait is theviolation of the rights of others. This can appear as a disregard forthe physical or sexual well being of another.Although these symptomsare all present, they may not always be evident. Research has shownthat the sociopath isusually a person with an abundance of charm and wit. He or she mayappear friendly and considerate, but these attributes are usuallysuperficial. They are used as a way of blinding the other person tothe personal agenda behind the sociopath’sbehavior.Many people withantisocial personality disorder frequently indulge in alcohol or druguse. They may use these substances heavily as a way of heighteningtheir antisocial personality. The sociopath sometimessees the world on his or her own terms, as a place of high drama andrisky thrills. The sociopath maysuffer from low self esteem, and the use of alcohol and drugs is away to diminish these feelings.The causes of antisocialpersonality disorder are thought to be either genetic orenvironmental. Children who are influenced by antisocial parents mayadopt these tendencies. Similarly, role models such as one's friendsor peer group may also influence the behaviour pattern ofa sociopath.Antisocial behaviour is more likely to occur in men than in women.About 1% of women have this disorder, while 3% of men are affected byit.It is very rare for aperson with antisocial personality disorder to seek help of their ownaccord. Treatment for antisocial personality disorder is usuallythrough group psychotherapy.Sociopaths often find it helpful to talk through and recognize theirproblems with people they can trust. In a number of cases, this typeof personality disorder tends to diminish from the age of 30 onwards.
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